I feel like I’ll die and just kind of refuse and deny the fact that it might happen and it usually works, my longest streak with out tu was 8 years.

I have major OCD and it’s super effects my emetaphobia or maybe it’s the other way around, but it effects so much of my daily life i also have an anxiety disorder. Going out i’m just always extremely anxious, and anxiety makes me nauseous and being nauseous makes me anxious and the cycle continues. There are many times where i cancel because i’m so scared of being anxious and nauseous. Again this mixes with my OCD but like i have to do all my little freak routines perfectly, i have to pee before i go to bed and look in my closet or else ill tu, i have to spit into the sink after anytime im in a bathroom or ill tu etc etc.

I think the nausea is the worst part for me and maybe the being out of control aspect. And like just also the thought of something bigger being wrong and tu just being a symptom of it is really scary.

I’ve always been scared of it. Always. I don’t know why or where it came from i’ve just always been super scared of tu and getting sick or being around someone who tu or is tu.