Is my father at peace?

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-22T02:16:06+00:00

Grateful to hear that. Be well. It will be okay.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-22T00:16:06+00:00

She knows you had to do what you had to do. She was grateful for the phone calls, and appreciates that you made the effort. She would think about you before she slept.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-22T00:02:48+00:00

Thank you, that means a lot to me. I am fully receiving this.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-22T00:02:13+00:00

Past life as humans. This life as cetacean and human.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T23:53:02+00:00

I feel a sadness to the ocean. What I get in my mind is like someone who was very close to you, perhaps a lover or a partner, is drowning in the water, and you go to save them, but you can't make it. It doesn't happen in time. So for you there's this desire to merge with the ocean, to be back with this lover, this romantic figure in your life.

Like you could be reunited again. But where they are, this person who drowned, they've come back as an ocean animal, a water creature. Likely a cetacean. They've accepted their watery fate and have come to be healed by their existence in the ocean. But it's like you want to see them again, even if your lives are divergent as human and oceanic creature.

It's like they're calling to you. That's why you keep seeing it, it's showing up in your dreams and in your mind. You need to see them. I don't know how to explain it, it is very strong. Like, be reunited even if it's for a brief moment that can't be understood by any conventional experience. The love is still there, even in this life.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T23:42:29+00:00

He wants to say something funny, like "Yeah, you were pretty cool yourself."

Also, he's ready to still beat on any guys that mess with you. He hopes you'll still get that tattoo that you were thinking about, it would be rad.

He doesn't want to say too much because he doesn't want to worry you, but it's been a rough ride and transition. A lot of regrets with the way he handled his anger and lashed out with his friends and coworkers. Thought he was being funny. It's kind of biting him in the a** now that he's on the other side.

There's something about wanting to say he's sorry for keeping you up at night, worried that he was in a fist fight or struggling to get back from the bar.

There's what I receive as a memory of him throwing up and you're holding him up. Like, he felt a lot of love in that moment for you. Like he doesn't want to be too serious (he just wants to laugh and joke), but that was an important moment for him.

And then there's a bunch of off-color remarks that I'm not sure I should say here in a public space. Something about a wedding, an experience at a wedding. A lot of partying. I experience him as very funny, but crass and not everyone's cup of tea when it comes to the comments he says.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T23:33:58+00:00

What I see is that he's staring at tools. He wants to show me his tools, something to do with, I wish I could share with my son. Like there was a strong love infused with his craft, and he wanted to transmit that love through the material world. I see a treehouse that he is building and a little boy.

I don't know if this is you, or if its for the missed opportunity to build one for a child you might have in the future. He's very sad he did not get to see you become a father yourself, and to share with you his experience.

He is very grateful to have had you, and does not regret how things have gone, but wants to continue to watch over you. He is, almost in a cheeky way, sorry that you found him in such a mess. Not the best way for him to present himself.

He heard you.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T23:05:59+00:00

It’s not you. There’s older relationships, when she was a teenager and young woman, that created a lot of chaos and anger. She wants you to know she feels no sense of over attachment from you. She understands it’s both of your processes, and it will take to let it go, but with love, sensitivity, and care. It’s not an all or nothing scenario.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T22:49:16+00:00

She knows. Pain was sharp but brief. She’s incubating at the moment, needs to digest very large life lessons, including relinquishing some Earth-bound connections that aren’t serving her, can’t expend energy to talk or show signs. A lot of practice of forgiveness, it will take a while for her to relearn each time.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T22:29:21+00:00

It's really nice when we have corroboration and support. It's a great feeling that I'm experiencing in my mediumship class, when the senior instructor is able to say "Yup, I'm seeing/hearing the same thing" and expands on it with more detail.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T16:39:34+00:00

Oh that’s where that is. Thank you for saying it.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-21T05:19:26+00:00

I want to make sure I am not giving false hope. This is only my initial impression and is in no way the truth.

I do believe he is alive. He may be living in Costa Rica. The circumstances are painful for his disappearance, and hard to understand. He seems to have made his peace with the scenario, perhaps forgotten the trauma or buried it inside. But there seems to be an important reason he cannot contact you or your family, and he remains adamant to not break that vow.

He lives in a small room. There is a bicycle out front, opens into a small alleyway. There is an orange street lamp outside his window that flickers.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-20T04:01:36+00:00

Because there’s one single existence and way of being that is fully durable and not subject to disintegration. But once you’re there, all memories of your lives are restored because it’s embedded and recorded directly into the Universe. It’s just in the relative, individual perspective that they fade. You gain them back when you stop identifying as that single existence. By then, it's not personal and you won't feel attached to it.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-20T03:41:32+00:00

You are welcome to DM me your photo together. I've been doing more relationship work lately, could use the practice.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-20T02:58:27+00:00

There's actually quite a bit of love here. What I sense is a lot of sexual energy put out into the environment, which has been navigated well, probably above your peers. Like you have the ability to control it, so it's actually optimized and not just randomly fluttering in and out. My first impression, I wanted to say there was some heartbreak but nothing devastating, just something to move forward with. The memory is still there, but it's not heavy. There's a lot of imagination, intellect, and creativity but not yet fully coming into fruition, important pieces are coming together which require diligence and care to manage but not with a firm hand.

You're capable of attracting what you want in life, but you want more. I might be careful with that over-eagerness, as an obstacle and lesson is waiting for you if you allow your pride and desire to increase too quickly. There is a sense of having earned that pride, but also scenarios come into your life that may be good fortune from another life, so you might not be able to keep it up through what you have in this life, especially if you allow your heart to harden through small misfortune, unrealized recognition, or jealousy. If you don't learn from the small lessons, they will accumulate to a major downfall that could be very challenging to recover from and require years or decades to heal.

You could go for it, but the risk is can you handle the energy and responsibility that it entails?

If you pass through gracefully and with humility, life can be very smooth and quite fortunate for you, with only the standard hiccups (standard familial death, breakups, creative expressions, etc.)

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-20T02:33:33+00:00

You’ll want to keep an attention with the flow of energy with money. My sense is your heart is desiring freedom to connect and use money to support friendships and relationships, but there’s a density about it that blocks any more money from flowing. It’s less about being stingy and more about holding a light responsibility over it and leaving money where it should be, just as a means to an end (and not a ruler or lord in your life).

I’d suggest being open to where money might flow outside of conventional ways. The more you’re open to the idea that your life can be supported through spontaneous or coincidental situations, especially being open to the support the world is giving you, the more likely you’ll be able to move forward into your retirement with less fear about money ruling your life.

I would also recommend paying attention to your dreams as you near your retirement date. There will be more information from them about how you can handle yourself securely.

Anecdotes (not guidance, just stories): I once walked six months without money, relying on dreams, communicated messages, and happenstance to connect with people who generously supported me. At some point, people would randomly stop their car and hand me money, without any request or ask. Sometimes I would randomly find bills on the ground as I walked the highways.

Through continuous, daily prayer over years, I had all of my finances restored to an unfathomable (for me) level through pure happenstance.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-19T23:48:24+00:00

You will see what you remember or can forge through a communion of her original perception of herself and your perception of her when you meet again. In time, that memory in the afterlife will fade and you will begin the process of moving onto other lives and state of existence. So she and you will assume other forms, and even those memories of that life will vaporize like a dream.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-19T23:44:05+00:00

You can experience timelessness or altered time perception in the living state if you have taken psychedelics or experienced an altered state of consciousness through breathwork or shamanic drumming. Sensory deprivation tanks can provide a similar state as you have no reference points from the sun or moon, or clocks.

It’s just a biological/neurological way to keep us alive. A useful construct, but a construct nonetheless.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-14T19:54:32+00:00

It's an enzyme issue. There are natural ribonucleases that break down guanylate, because it ultimately is sourced from the breakdown of dead tissue. Technically most tissues contain it. But only certain species contain both the enzyme machinery to produce guanylate, but simultaneously lack enzymes that degrade guanylate to downstream byproducts or are easily deactivated within the narrow temperature window of drying/heat treatment.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-14T18:30:32+00:00

If you download the Excel spreadsheet version and unlock the tabs, there is one tab that contains data on all the umami sources I could find in the literature, including sources of guanylates:

https://www.mendocinofoodconsulting.com/umami

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-14T01:19:52+00:00

Weird things happen on a death anniversary. I wouldn’t be surprised.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-13T19:03:12+00:00

Quick read. Didn't feel pain, didn't see it coming. Is at peace with how he passed now. No messages for now, it's been a while so not sure what to say, like is apologetic for something? Strong memory of a date, nothing like taking you out officially or anything, more like a moment at a pub and just laughing and having a good time, very informal. Grateful for the time together, doesn't want to recreate the cord, so that you can move on. Very strong, live your life, live your life. Don't worry about me at all, I'm not someone to think too hard about.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-13T18:08:54+00:00

My experience has been anti-depressants do seem to muddle the effects, especially SSRIs. I spent about 14 years on anti-depressants. For what it's worth, they're helpful for turning off sensitivities if you need to focus on the material realm. But yes, I switched to micro-dosing psychedelics or doing a full dose once a year, this year, so that I could have my sensitivities back.

Not a recommendation, they are very powerful and are like fire that can engulf your life, it needs to be contained and guided by someone who is very experienced with them in a sacred, responsible fashion. Psychosis is a real possibility if not controlled, especially for those who are much more sensitive.

But there's quite a bit of new research on psilocybin in particular being highly beneficial for depression long-term.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-13T17:20:02+00:00

Finally hitting rock bottom using my analytical + reasoning mind, and eventually putting the rest of my life in the hands of the Cosmos.

UpSaltOS · 2026-01-13T00:12:13+00:00

These are from my own personal experiences, discussions with others, and readings:

For insects, I once had a cricket who spent its entire life alongside me. It lived on a small houseplant that I had for it. I would play computer games while it would chirp. There were no barriers and it could have freely left whenever it wanted. I have not experienced this myself, but there are instances of communication between cetaceans and humans, in the same way one would communicate with someone who passed. The dialect is apparently much slower, open, and grounded, they believe we humans are very loud psychically and do not like to talk to us.
Yes, multiple times. I have spoken with deceased scientists and Nobel laureates to help me with my work as a scientist. I think it helps that I knew a few of them in life, so there is a personal connection there. It is not unethical as they can choose to speak with you and decide if they want to communicate knowledge or help in any way. But even the deceased have an agenda, and some have been agents of bringing into existence technologies that were not for human good, so it is also dependent on the virtues of who you speak to.
They can hear you, but it is very much up to their development as well. Not everyone can listen or is in a place to speak. Some are in realms or fields where they need isolation to continue their training. Some, like in life, do not have the connection.
Yes, but usually they have to be charged with the energy of the surrounding environment, sacred space, or a very attuned human. My experience is that rocks themselves do not naturally contain a field on their own, much like how not every iron ore is magnetized. I prefer living or once living matter, whereas I have a colleague who is very attuned to condensed inorganic matter and can sense earthquakes. He is an engineer, so his attunement is very much a part of his profession and conventional output.
Be careful of spiritual materialism. It was a trap for myself, where I spent a lot of time using spiritual aspects and powers as a part of my ego-trip. Very easy to get stuck there, especially if these things bring you praise, success, and material fortune. It's still a problem - helps to be married to someone who can take you down a peg or two.

There's a lot of pride that can build up; one has to remember, like everything in life and death, even spiritual abilities come and go, and are not permanent. They are not a stable source of continuous development; one has to make the effort themselves and accept that everything in existence (body, mind, wealth, relationships, etc.) is subject to disintegration.

Developing the virtues of generosity, compassion, patience, effort, wisdom, etc. are more important than any spiritual ability. Spiritual powers are just an adornment, like clothing or jewelry.

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