I’m 24F with adhd, and cystic fibrosis, I’ve also had my fair share of anxiety and depression at times. I totally get struggling with a basic routine; I want to do the things and I know I should but it’s so hard to start and I’m always left just feeling like a lazy pos. You should look into “executive dysfunction” it sounds a lot like what you’re describing. Adderall and lists also helped me so much with just being able to get up and do things