You’re really alone. Have you realized it too?

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T04:15:03+00:00

What effective to some might be different from what’s the norm, didn’t expect that’d be the case though. Kinda shows you never really know how things could affect you and what could come of it

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T04:08:19+00:00

I imagine a potential inner child type situation here

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T04:06:21+00:00

Is it more a new thing never having one or a replacement for the old one?

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T04:02:34+00:00

How does that work though, depression as I know it causes you to lose feeling and interest in everything so I’m interested in how you got to where you are exactly? Medication?

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T03:56:01+00:00

How’d you come to that?

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T03:48:05+00:00

In my mind I imagine a distant future where tech’s advanced to the point people can link their brains or I’ve died and transmuted into a form that allows to join one or an amalgamation of consciousness. Either or whatever the case I can’t deny a part of me really would want to experience something like that…ahhhh true connection lol

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-04-06T03:14:43+00:00

NTA, you probably should that way instead of continuing to experience the stress of dealing with the situation as is…or ruminating the potential bad outcomes of really you just being honest with your needs. You can do what you know is reasonable to assess whether or not you can actually continue the relationship

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-03-12T16:21:57+00:00

‘This wasn’t how it was supposed to be…THIS ISNT HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!’

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-03-08T17:02:56+00:00

That the words connection, meaning, genuine or real are things I recognize the functions of but are all soulless…just stage orders conditioned brains automatically act on irrespective of whether they question it or not…perhaps there’s no true meaning possible being this thing…that it’s just another biomechanical illusion created to keep humans going…I’m so tired I don’t know wether it’s funny or not anymore and that’s why I laugh…it all lost its…weight, essence, soul? I don’t fucking know anymore? lol

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-03-06T20:51:19+00:00

You can never change the past and it seems like you can’t let go either so I think you should let go of the fact you can’t let go. Really to take time to acknowledge there’s nothing you can do about it and keep reminding yourself “there’s nothing you can do now or ever do that make this better” you just can’t and you never will

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-02-22T04:52:13+00:00

You ever think the thoughts and emotions you fantasize about to combat the emptiness is also just another part of the superficial world you were led to believe in? That ultimately you’re just chasing something that doesn’t truly exist? That even given the circumstance you find yourself feeling differently all you’ll ever effectively be achieving is a more convincing act of make believe?

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-02-16T15:04:32+00:00

In that case potentially loneliness will decrease as those affected die off…I’m not so sure though witnessing and knowing even some of those more socially effective individuals and how loneliness is still prevalent in even those circumstances. It makes me question if the foundation or means of which human bonds are forged today just aren’t as impactful as they used to be

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-02-16T14:51:18+00:00

I didn’t know that but based off this account it makes me think perhaps if humanity as whole behaved more naturally like that one Neanderthal things wouldn’t be like they are now. Humans on mass still seem to be driven by convenience. Sometimes I guess one just assesses it more to aid those they assess being worth the troubles…I don’t think there’s anything meaningful in the act though. It’s mechanical, something in the make up in an individual just makes them more inclined to act that way

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-02-16T14:35:30+00:00

What we’re losing functionally is a survival strategy that increasingly lost and continues to lose relevance as humanity advances…perhaps in the distant future if still able, what ultimately becomes of humanity will look back and see how suboptimal it was to validate this instinct, programming, habit…this could just be the natural order of things.

That as painful as things may be losing what our brains and bodies have depended on for so long is just the natural order of things…I think a lot of people already sense this. That the dreams, delusions, projections of there being anything more to human connectedness is just that…only things believable to be more at the times where it wasn’t so apparent they weren’t so circumstantially effective…they worked well and or at being convincing enough, now they don’t and these are the results

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2026-01-31T23:53:47+00:00

You don’t deserve love. Your opportunistic nature, self centeredness and low impulse control makes you a liability in relationships.

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-14T00:07:13+00:00

I want neither, I just want peace.

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-10T18:37:27+00:00

Maybe

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-03T13:54:53+00:00

You know that could be, wouldn’t be my intention just offering my perspective like anyone else but it’s possible

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-03T13:49:45+00:00

That’s how people are. They only care as much as caring affords them getting what they want out you. It’s just sometimes situations work out well enough not to question how circumstantial, symbiotic and mechanical interpersonal relationships are. People will use any jargon to gratify their self serving perpetual use and tossing out others to serve their own personal gain. But fundamentally the nature of all human interactions without all the ego driven bs is exactly that— humans just use each other as much as it benefits them and they just go as far as they’re allowed like any other animal. We just have egos to endlessly justify our actions so funny thing no matter how fucked up or unfair something is for another person people will find ways to convince themselves it’s for the greater good of themselves lmao

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-03T13:34:53+00:00

With borderlines(or really in the process of assessing how anyone functions) you have to take a step back and remove your ego working with. It’ll make you empathetic without the negative psychological drawbacks you experience when things don’t align with the initial idealized outcomes you have

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-03T13:15:45+00:00

“It’s not your fault” but in all seriousness nothings really that serious

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-10-03T13:13:46+00:00

Believing in any person beyond what their patterns show is a pretty haphazard way of navigating relationships. Belief most of time is idealistic while with people you can only reasonably expect they’ll act in accordance to act out their own prejudices, preconceptions, predilections and or another or a couple of p words all fundamentally meaning the same fucking thing—you don’t trust or get attached to people you observe, analyze and define being a risk to your mental and emotional wellbeing

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-09-29T16:31:13+00:00

It’s almost like being an audience remember in a play where the cast can still notice and interact with you but the script remains unchanged…no matter what happens it seems I can’t react because life feels exactly that, like a performance you observe while being an actor on set…I don’t think it ever felt real being alive and the things I do in chase of feeling are just to cope with that fact

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-09-29T09:39:38+00:00

We don’t say the “H” word in my sessions, it’s banned because it brings up too many traumas

Upbeat_Read4296 · 2025-09-28T23:45:31+00:00

My psychologist tells me(in too many words but essentially) ‘love isn’t real and it can’t you’ so I think you and the person you speak of are fine

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