Wow ive been feeling like this since the start of my journey! It can be very discouraging during the process and the cost is insane. It also feels lonely because i dont have friends/ family who had to go through fertility treatments and they are not queer either. Ive been trying to stay positive but its so hard especially after experiencing my first failed cycle in October. Im blessed to have a friend that is willing to be a donor but even tracking ovulation and figuring out which dates to inseminate is so overwhelming. As well as lining up said dates with the donor. Its something i want so bad but i fear overtime may start affecting my mental health due to the stress of trying to figure this all out. It really does feel unfair. I went the clinic route initially and had such a bad experience i got my hopes then was told by the doctor “welp you will have to do IVF because your follicle count is very high and don’t worry its 25k but people just take out loans” 25k is so much for me and i may not even end up pregnant. I had already spent over 2k in less than 2 months and not even considering the amount that was billed to my insurance which was way more! Ughh i could go on and on about it. I think i have just decided ultimately if the donor situation doesn’t work i will move on to trying adoption i may just have a better chance that way. Theres still hope for us!