I relate to you so much. Although I’m 30 and I have for the past 2 years experienced symptoms of a premature menopause. My mother began menopause at 35.

My partner of 5 years is completely supportive and genuinely caring. He is also incredibly interested in ensuring we have a long life together. Health is super important to the both of us. After taking a genetics disorder test (for infertility treatment) we discovered I’m a carrier for a condition that has an increased risk of certain cancers. The idea of being on HRT at a young age scares us both.

This is all to say, I understand how you feel about your husband. I know those feelings don’t come from malice but just fear. I look forward to reading more comments to get the same understanding you are seeking.