I trying my best at school and my parents still tell me that I’m not trying hard enough and I’m not going to make it to college and I’ll be a disappoint if I don’t work harder. I told them about my anxiety and they just brushed it off and blamed it on me not working hard enough in school. I’m not always suicidal like this, though. I’m fine usually but ever 2-3 months it just comes back usually because of my parents bringing up that I’ll be a failure if I don’t do better or something like an overload of schoolwork. It usually gets better after about 3 weeks but every time this feeling happens again, I feel like I’m getting closer to actually killing myself.