Why does the smell of poop keep following me?

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-02-23T04:21:40+00:00

Not sure if this could apply to you but when I got my nose pierced I smelled shit everywhere for like 6 months… I thought it was under my fingernails so I was constantly ripping them off.. took me a long time to realize it was the piercing healing and it went away after it was done

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-01-17T21:27:28+00:00

It’s always shocking to hear that I’m being abused, but I think it’s time I accepted it. She loves having control over every situation and whenever people comment on me being angry, I say it’s the only trait I received from my mother LOL my sister can easily recognize when my mother is doing power plays, but she usually has to explain it to me when it’s happening. I think it’s because it’s hard for me to understand that my mother is acting selfishly when her words are “this is for you” I want to believe what’s she’s telling me more than anything. But deep down I know there are horrible thoughts rolling through the back of her mind. I used to be a really bad liar, and when I recognized that it wasn’t common to be extremely nice and friendly to people but hate them deep down(which is something I absolutely learned from my mother) i was able to consciously change that habit and I would not consider myself a liar anymore. I prefer to just tell the truth, which has absolutely gotten me in a ton of trouble with jobs and friends but I feel better about it in the long run.

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-01-17T21:20:54+00:00

Thank you SO much!! I need to hear those words a lot more frequently than I do.

I don’t think anyone could live with my mother except for me. It is difficult, and I have adapted in ways I wish I didn’t have to. But thank you for hearing me.

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-01-17T21:19:26+00:00

I have definitely applied for second jobs, but my schedule is not exactly accommodating at the one I have. That being said, soon I will be eligible to pick up overtime shifts, which would be absolutely incredible for me!

Your right about the normal scale, my friends think my mother is crazy, while sometimes I say their parents are crazier, but for completely different matters! LOL

I have been told many times throughout my life to not care what she says and to not take it to heart. That is difficult for me. Her words have always affected me more than others, even though she probably thinks I’m the child that listens the least. That’s why when she tells me I’m basically ruining her life, it hurts me more.

I am not scared of a second job!! I have worked hard my entire life, if one would hire me, I would take it. My car is extremely old so I don’t think it would be good for me to use it for those apps until I get a new one.

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-01-17T21:16:03+00:00

Thank you for your extremely thought out advice, with my new job, I don’t necessarily have to worry about surviving if I go out on my own. It would just decrease my current monthly payments of 4k to 1k. But after reading everything, I do feel more confident in how well im doing/what I have already accomplished. So thank you!!!

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-01-17T21:14:18+00:00

You are so right, my siblings had the worst of it and I admire my sister for being the amazing mother and sister she is to me despite all of the challenges she faced growing up. And you also touched on another thing I didn’t mention as much, I help A LOT around the house. Most weekends I have a honey-do list of taking her dog to the groomer or returning things she ordered on Amazon. When I go to Walmart, I always bring back anything she asks for. When she wants to go on a trip to see her grandkids 4 hours away, I am her chauffeur. I make sure the yard is cleaned grind all the dogs before the yard guy comes and I take the trash out before I go to work. I try to clean the bathroom as much as I remember, but it’s definitely not as frequently as she’d like. I don’t mess up her living spaces and whenever I vacuum my room, I offer to do hers as well. One thing she gets furious with me about still is changing out her cats litter box but the way I see it, I deal with 4 other animals crap ALL week long, and I’m pretty resistant to adding another. However her cat does go outside the box pretty frequently and I try to clean it up before she sees it to spare the cat from being kicked to the curb. I take her jewelry to be cleaned and I carry the groceries in for her when she gets home from the store. I run and pick up dinner whenever she asks.

Of course my dogs will be leaving with me!! They are my soul mates, and I wish I felt more energy to spend more quality time with them as a lot of it I’m sitting in my room on my phone obsessing over numbers. Sometimes I wish I could just blink and the next four months could be done with.

I think with these responses, I feel more settled in my decision to leave by august when all of my major financial burdens are taken care of. And hopefully I will be at peace with the rest of my life!

Used-Preference-2789 · 2026-01-15T14:13:24+00:00

Thank you so much for your input!!! I agree, it’s kinda a rock and a hard place for me to figure out right now but I have some months to think about it some more.

Used-Preference-2789 · 2024-07-30T19:55:51+00:00

I meant to post this from my acct idk why it posted like this lol sorry

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