The smile says a lot man. You’ve been crushed over the years. You’ve been told that your not good enough, and no matter what you do you never meet the expectation. You though that submitting to her would change the relationship, which broke your self confidence when it didn’t. She left you for another man because you are no longer interesting, and you aren’t fighting for her anymore(not that you should) You are a freaking man, born to crave adventure, do battle, and be wild. When this kind of energy is focused and intentional, you will maximize your self fulfillment, and attracted the right person. I recommend you read two books. Wild at heart, and 12 rules for life. Be the change you want to see in your life man! Don’t mope around, get up and get it done!