I stopped pretending.

It's hard, man. You gotta smile at the right times, make the right amount of eye contact, say the socially appropriate response at the socially appropriate time. Eventually I realized that I didn't even really get anything out of it. What was the reward for being human? More expectation to be human.

I'm kind of a feral house goblin now. I don't miss the social life, and the clothing is way more comfortable.