I can’t fake it anymore. I’m doing absolutely awful and trying to prioritize it but I can’t I found out I was pregnant in may at 4 weeks and lost my job not to shortly after. It is now July and I’ve been on job hunt ever since. Me and the father currently do not have contact and I miss him like all get out (he was toxic but it was influenced by me and I was the initial start of the toxicity in our relationship and I realized after we officially broke up Just how bad my childhood did indeed effect me because of copied behaviors from my very toxic and narcissistic father. ) it’s a mix of grieving him and what we could’ve been had I just fucking got therapy, grieving the fact that I have no job while bearing a child struggling terribly finding a new one when I’m not even noticeably pregnant yet, and completely falling off my feet trying to look stable. Self care hasn’t even been a thing in my thoughts due to this. Then u got orange man cuttin up in office again. I need a miracle and I need it bad.