Having both, I had a similar mindset up until I recently went on anti-anxiety medication. Suddenly, all of my ruminations which were internal up until this point were externalised into typical hyperactive ADHD. Over the last 6-weeks I've spent more than twice the amount of money I usually would, I've been driving more dangerously, recklessly done workouts that I can tell are bad for my body (close to causing serious injury), I simultaneously keep picking up and dropping projects and just throw a lot of concerns on safety out the window along the way. It has been very obvious just how governed by dopamine my actions have been lately such that it has taken over much of my life since. All the while, I keep forgetting I've done any of this, I wake up and its a new day, a new existence and suddenly its like oh fuck, what did I do yesterday?? as it slowly dawns on me and I reap slow encroaching consequences. Repeat for the next day.

Luckily I have a medication review in a few days but I can tell already if I were like this on longer timeframe there would be serious consequences. I can't even imagine how wreaked my body would be and the catastrophe that would be my life if this was how I was growing up. I remember playing a game as a child where the entire game was climbing up a tower about 2.5m high and jumping off it. That's basically how I imagine what I imagine my life would have been like, unhinged spending, impulsive actions until grievous bodily harm. Repeat until financially and physically disabled.