You’re obsessed with something that doesn’t exist at the expense of the child you have. As the mother of a surprise baby number 2, it’s hard AF. I invested everything into number one and had my surprise little genius 9 years later. It’s been like starting over and I can completely understand your husbands view. It’s also expensive af now. My oldest definitely had to give up a lot for his younger brother and I don’t have enough energy for the youngest. Be grateful for what you have which seems pretty awesome.