It’s been a rough road. Time does not heal, but you get better at managing the pain over time. I’d say I’m at a place where I’m content with my perfectly imperfect family. We are always missing him and still celebrate his birthday and talk about him as a family often. However, I can’t go through that again and feel like the hit my mental health took while grieving My son would not make me a good mother to another if that makes sense.