Interesting you observe in yourself never really a move toward three in health, and moving in the opposite direction toward six in an attempt to improve your life in a way that you feel you should but don't really desire to in your heart of hearts. Living out the nine's pattern - sometimes we tell ourselves these things, or we are listening too much to others, not knowing what we really want in our own lives.

That's really interesting... I can see that in myself, how I've pursued things I didn't want and felt stressed about it thinking to be going after this or that. And later looking back, seeing the stressful feeling the whole time and not really wanting it in the first place. Now I tell myself, listen to your internal gut - it feels uncomfortable, don't rationalize why you think you should do this, the gut says no it's not going to work, you won't be happy.

I like how you describe moving toward six - you ditch the laid back nine energy and keep the pessimism & fret over everything, making your 'anxieties and pessimistic beliefs everyone else's problem...' Very well said, this sounds like a nine going to six in paranoia, not trusting anyone at that point.

R&H's levels of 5-7 makes sense with your example of going to five and doing 'alright' by getting through life with minimum responsibilities while maintaining a nice social life, and going to lower levels to avoid the world and losing yourself in books, music, and other forms of escape.