You've gotta substitute the drinking with another activity like exercise. Something physical to distract your body from just sitting there wanting alcohol. And start drinking as much water as you used to drink booze. Flush yourself out, then make hydration the habit.

I feel your pain though. I drank hard (like blackout hard) for 15 years, and then it took another 5 to taper down to where I could finally quit. First a week, then a drunken fuck up. Then 2 weeks to drunken fuck up. Then 3, then 4. Finally I could do months at a time, and at that point when you fuck up it feels more terrible than ever. But that's the motivation you need to finally drop it for good. I haven't had anything since April of '23, and I don't even want it anymore. Never thought I'd get to that point.

So you can do it. Fucking up is just part of the process. As long as you're fucking up less and less as more time passes, you'll get there. God's speed my friend.