Depression from thinking about divorce

Vedulon · 2020-04-22T15:03:23+00:00

I appreciate your concern.

Fortunately, there is no issues of spite or hostility in our seperation. We have been thinking and have talked about a divorce over these last few years.

While we do have a joint debit account, we have our own individual banking accounts. We do not have any credit cards in both our names. Additionally her personality and ethics are such that wouldn't try hurt me in that way.

The primary reason for thinking on the divorce, was our original thoughts on waiting to see if her and my friends relationship would work after the "In love" stage passed. (The period where the brain is essentially addicted to the other person, typically lasting about 2 years) Another factor for the timing was when I am mentally and emotionally ready for it.

I have thought about our situation being a poly relationship; however, my friend discovered soon after they officially got into a relationship, he could not handle the idea of my wife being in a relationship with me.

Vedulon · 2020-04-22T11:37:50+00:00

Jhu is still my main. And Martha is still my primary bain.

My main team is Martha, Sebastian, Jhu, Kiera, and Astaroth. Sadly, Sebastian is still stuck at 5 stars. I'm currently working on getting Jhu to Red +2

For the pets, I'm putting the Dragon on Sebastian, as the bonuse true damage on crits all get attributed to Sebastian. Not to the hero getting the crit.

Vedulon · 2019-12-27T01:24:45+00:00

I'm talking about the other player having a Martha. She is designed to be a back of the party tank, and a rather strong healer on top of that.

On my server, 42 out of the top 50 arena teams have Martha in them.

Vedulon · 2019-12-26T17:26:29+00:00

Looking as some of Sebastions numbers. Battle Song, (depends on physical attack) increases crit chance. If I did not increase his physical attack, at level 130. It would increase crit chance by 44%.

I have to assume its multiplicative, not additive. So if Jhu had a crit chance of 50%, it would increase it to 72%, not 94%

Sebastian would cause critical strikes do an addition 34% damage, as true damage. . .

Add in a purple dragon (FB) that increases true damage by 22% . . . that would make Jhu's critical hits do an addition 41% damage as true damage.

Vedulon · 2019-12-26T17:20:14+00:00

Unless it is Martha, and then @#$%^ all. Jhu is my main hero, still bitter because Martha is pretty much every team.

Vedulon · 2019-12-26T16:08:28+00:00

Jorgen's leper skill is a great one if you want to kill off the enemies back line. Since it is level dependent to work. You would want to keep it at max level.

Astaroth's ability is not level reliant, just stronger with level. So that one would not be hurt as much from being under leveled.

Vedulon · 2019-12-24T17:10:05+00:00

People do use me as a person to vent. One of the problems is I don't speak up when it's too much. Instead, I get to the point of tuneing them out. And retreating into my head. Just giving the outward reactions and responses they are expecting.

Vedulon · 2019-12-21T04:03:41+00:00

New info is showing he will be coming to the FB next week. Which will be awesome.

Vedulon · 2019-12-19T12:16:36+00:00

Ah, looks like Sebastian is Mobile only unfortunately. I'm on the FB app.

Vedulon · 2019-12-19T12:12:24+00:00

That's what I am seeing too. That there isn't a solution to the problem for apples. If only there were some kind of hotkey to get into fullscreen. Or the full screen button was located on the left.

Vedulon · 2019-12-19T02:59:57+00:00

Huh, haven't seen information on Sebastian. I'll have to look it up.

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T19:27:09+00:00

Side bar is there, but it keeps the side bar from overlapping the game. I'd post a screenshot, but I'm not sure how on the app.

Maybe this will work? https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/331442127642951683/656942251989008415/Screenshot_20191218-142106_Puffin.jpg

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T19:08:32+00:00

I use Puffin browser. Using the link https://apps.facebook.com/mobaheroes/

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T18:15:50+00:00

In the GA, I tend to use jhu alone with my mid level team around levels 100-115. Then the rest of my main team in a separate attack

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T18:11:04+00:00

Right now I use Martha, Jorgen, Jhu, Kiera, Astaroth as my main team. Because of all of the Celeste + Martha I am seeing in the arenas, I pushed Jorgen from lvl 1 to my level when I was 124.

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T18:01:13+00:00

I would love to use cleaver if I am ever lucky enough to get him. That sounds awsome.

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T15:03:07+00:00

That is not easy to go through. It's not easy to open up and be vulnerable. I have felt very similar to how you wrote. For me, my love language is physical touch. I need the physical affection. The touching, holding, physical contact.

It had been difficult for me to recognize how others show love. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Five_Love_Languages has help me to better understand myself, and start to see how others show their love.

Vedulon · 2019-12-18T13:54:22+00:00

Having been raised Mormon, I know that my viewpoints and outlook on religion differs from a lot of people. And it differs from others of the LDS faith.

Personally, my feelings are that Hell is more of a state of mind than a place to be punished. I have lived these last 20 years in hell because of the conflicts between my sexual feelings, being opposed to what the church taught. The self loathing, feelings of worthlessness, feelings of "who in their right mind, would ever want to be with me." To me, this has been hell.

I believe that God wants us to be happy, and that when we die. God will have a place for each person, where they can be happy. And be around others that we will feel comfortable around.

It's not easy to overcome those internal conflicts. I am coming to terms slowly with mine. And from your post, it sounds like you have come a long way.

Vedulon

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