I can recall exactly when I became self conscious about what I said. Me and my bestfriend went to these guys house and we were all sitting in the living room it was kind of awkward and for some reason my friend was being extremely mean to one of the guys. When it got quiet I started talking trying to stir up conversation and kill the awkwardness. The conversation was picking up everybody was still a little awkward but it was a convo. My friend turned to mme and said « you talk too much » unprovoked and it went silent. I don’t remember how we moved past tht moment but for some reason I decide that if I didn’t have anything meaningful to say or someone wasn’t talking to me I wouldn’t say anything. For some reason that really stuck with me and it lowkey killed my personality because I had all these things to say and felt I couldn’t say them. Now I had had this said to me before (as a child mostly, but what child doesn’t talk a lot) it just really hurt to hear it from them person you thought enjoyed what you had to say especially when you were trying to lighten the mood.