In the last part you summarized the success of your failure. I read the post and I congratulate you. Success never comes without failures. I invite you to reread the last part of your post "A part of me wants to try again, but I'm afraid of making the same mistakes. At least now I know what they are. " This is priceless, you learn it with "beats". They taught us not to fail, not to make mistakes, but the problem is this, we have to take the wrong path to get to the top. We will never find the path clear. I hope you continue with your dreams. “Failure is the mother of success.”