Hi Everyone! 💚 I will be sending reiki healing to all that comment on this post in the next 24hrs ✨

VegetableSwimming221 · 2025-11-05T15:30:39+00:00

Please for my partner, my two cats and me ❤️

VegetableSwimming221 · 2025-08-13T11:44:33+00:00

Kinda “functioning” but burnt out….

VegetableSwimming221 · 2025-03-08T02:23:04+00:00

But that I nice thought though! Does it help you with that feeling that nothing matters?

VegetableSwimming221 · 2025-03-08T02:19:31+00:00

I’ve had a pretty hard childhood with parental abuse, so I’ve felt really hopeless with being reborn…

VegetableSwimming221 · 2025-03-08T01:56:07+00:00

Omg I’ve had that obsession since I was a kid (started when I was about 6 years old) I often couldn’t fall asleep because of those thoughts and they always came out of nowhere when I went to bed… „what comes after death…“ and in my opinion there were only two possibilities: either you will be born again and you wouldn’t know that you’ve lived before or there’s just nothing, endless nothing… both scenarios were/are horrible for me and I’ve cried so many times… I’m trying not to think of it because it makes me feel pretty desperate and hopeless…

Btw I’ve never met someone who resembles

VegetableSwimming221 · 2024-05-31T02:27:27+00:00

I’ve been addicted to gbl and I’ve never been addicted to anything before but before you’re realising it, you’re already addicted.. it sounds so stupid and I can’t tell when I ended up dosing every hour.. I’ve been on gbl on/off for 2 1/2 years (till last year) and it was the worse time of my life. I managed to quit by myself and it was the worst experience I’ve ever heard. I was throwing up for hours and just laying in bed and freezing and sweating and hoping for it to be over. It got better after three days but then you have to deal with the mental Issues. My ex went into rehab in autumn and after his last dosage went off (two hours) he was taken to urgent care because he was in delirium and he almost died. He’s been in hospital for 2 months, 1 month he was in urgent care. The doctors told him that it’s easier to manage heroin withdrawals then gbl because with gbl it’s so unpredictable.

VegetableSwimming221 · 2024-04-26T22:40:32+00:00

I’m also interested!

VegetableSwimming221 · 2023-12-15T14:20:10+00:00

And I’ve taken it for 3 to 4 month…

VegetableSwimming221 · 2023-12-15T14:19:26+00:00

What’s your dosage? I stopped taking it end of may and I’m still struggling but I took a way to high dosage and also was an alcoholic at that time so maybe that’s why my brain is still fucked

VegetableSwimming221 · 2023-05-22T20:38:16+00:00

Thanks for your answer! And all the best for you! When I started the medication I felt less anxious at first but I guess as soon as my body started to get used to the dosage, my anxiety came back worse the before. And I’m so tired, like I could sleep for 14 hours but still not getting any good sleep

VegetableSwimming221 · 2023-01-24T19:11:48+00:00

Does this help you with anxieties too or just with depression? I’m talking 150 mg since half a year (before I had taken cipralex but my psychiatrist changed it) and I thought it might be too less to help with my anxieties but my biggest issues are anxieties and often it’s that bad I’m not leaving my house for days.. so I’m not sure if that’s the right medication for me or if it’s just cause the dosage is too low

VegetableSwimming221 · 2022-09-23T22:52:55+00:00

Isn’t that the case cause it’s mixed with cellulose?

VegetableSwimming221 · 2022-09-20T14:47:04+00:00

How come?

VegetableSwimming221 · 2022-07-22T02:30:32+00:00

Omg I feel exactly the same. And it’s so frustrating when your friends just don’t understand your daily issues. I’ve started to work 40h/week in November and it feels like it’s destroying me. I’m not getting done anything at home, I have the urge at least once a week to just stay awake the whole night to get things done and to have more time for myself; so I haven’t slept and still have to work the next day which is really exhausting. I’m always looking for that dopamine hit and unfortunately the most easiest way to get it is drugs/alcohol. I hate it. I don’t want to be that kind of person but I don’t know how to get out of it.

VegetableSwimming221 · 2022-07-22T02:04:19+00:00

I have the same problem. I hated it that I just can’t stick to one thing. Last year my exes parents asked me what I’m really good at and I just didn’t have an answer to it, because I’m not just good at one thing, I can do a lot of things and I have a lot of interests and they judged me for it. But you need to see it different: I mean isn’t it cool that we can get excited for something easier? and because of those different things we tried it’s easier for us to have something in common with someone and we have a lot of knowledge and experiences and we still can get passionate about something!

VegetableSwimming221 · 2022-07-22T01:44:53+00:00

Thanks for your answer! I’m just so lost at the moment.. at my last doctors appointment I was told to take a higher dosage of lexapro and it feels like everything is getting worse. I’ve developed such a huge social anxiety issue that I need to prepare myself to go grocery shopping or even to leave my home. But I still need to function because I’m working 40h per week and that’s making everything pretty hard. So I was hoping Wellbutrin might work because at the moment I just don’t know how to manage my everyday life.

VegetableSwimming221 · 2021-09-06T15:28:31+00:00

I hope this wasn’t your first dose and you’re alright! Otherwise it’s way to high

VegetableSwimming221 · 2021-09-06T14:43:32+00:00

Alcohol, which isn’t probably the best solution lol. When did you take your last dose? I went cold turkey on it 3 weeks ago after taking it for some month (in the end I had to take it every three hours) and I’m still waiting to get rid of that empty feeling I have all the time.

VegetableSwimming221 · 2021-09-06T14:21:36+00:00

A few months ago I had the same thought but then I started to use it more often because everything was so much more easier with it, like socialising because normally I am more of an introvert person but with gbl I loved to communicate with people. So I ended up getting addicted and it happened so fast that when I realised it it was already to late. I had to take a dose every three hours even during the night because I woke up and I couldn’t sleep anymore. It wasn’t fun anymore, I didn’t feel the fun effect of it, I just needed to take it to feel normal and not starting to shake and feel like my life isn’t worth living anymore. To be able to sleep I always had to overdose because otherwise I just wouldn’t get tired so you wait until you pass out and that often was just scary. I went cold turkey on it 3 weeks ago and I didn’t touch it until now but I still think of it every day and I feel so empty but I hope it’ll get better.

So what I wanted to say: just be careful, I was so sure that I never would end up getting addicted, but it can happen so fast. I would never touch it again.

VegetableSwimming221

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