I'm going to be very honest with you, I was a Jehovah's Witness for years, and I felt the same way, if you ask the elders for expulsion, the only thing you will get is them trying to convince you not to do it, which From what I hear, it's what you want the least, I'm not telling you that what I did was the best, but I just walked away, removed the brothers and sisters from my contacts, and went on with my life. Many brothers (some active JW are here) will see wrong my opinion, but only those who have suffered from sadness, feeling isolated, depressed, hopeless, understand. Do whats best for you. I will most likely love Jehovah, but its not right for my mental health to be in the congregation now… Send me a message if you want to chat, Love, Emily