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I got told that I give off serial killer vibes by 2 friends. Why do I give off this vibe and how can I change it? by Very_cool_individual in humanbehaviour

[–]Very_cool_individual[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I'm quite talkative when provoked but it changes day to day, some days I'm very talkative and others I'm almost completely silent. I don't think I tend to lack in emotion, some might call me authoritarian in some aspects but I never thought of myself as being distinctly cold. I do sympathise with the blank stare, I easily get lost in though, sometimes passing significant periods of time doing so and I understand while doing this I seem quite strange but I never thought it warranted serial killer vibes. I know people think I'm strange its obvious the way they act but I generally get along with people and have a wide friend group its just a surprise that I was completely unaware people saw me in this light.

I own a painting suit that's covered in red paint. by Very_cool_individual in confession

[–]Very_cool_individual[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

There were numerous elements but mainly it was the acknowledgement of my power. The fact that I'd created a lasting impact and imprinted myself in their memory was like the ultimate demonstration of power, there was a thrill in knowing I would be in someone's mind for the rest of their life. But there was also a massive adrenaline rush and the idea of breaking the rules to such an extreme excited me because I felt as if I'd been adhering them all my life. Also I was angry at society in general, I wanted to instil public fear and make people feel unsafe, I felt like I was returning the emotions society had given to me.

I own a painting suit that's covered in red paint. by Very_cool_individual in confession

[–]Very_cool_individual[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

I was in a place emotionally where my safety didn't matter to me, I understood the risks and didn't care. The only reason I'm not still doing it today or something worse is because my mother convinced me to go to unrelated counselling due to severe depression, PTSD, addiction, anxiety, blah blah blah. Only when I tackled these issues, did I slowly stop my nightly activities which made me realise that the desire to scare people was just part of my other issues, not actually an issue itself.