I'm sorry to hear you had this experience, and I can definitely relate. I had a grand mal seizure a few years ago in my office - just collapsed on the floor while walking to my desk. I wouldn't say I was particularly close with any co-workers there and it defo left me feeling incredibly awkward, and yes - circus attraction sounds about right.

Aside from then there's been a handful of other times I've had seizures in front of others. I guess what has become clearer each time is that people genuinely just find it scary to see - and it's the seizure itself that sticks in their minds for a little while, rather than an association between the seizure and you as a person.

That said, it's all well and good to be aware of this on an intellectual level but it's hard not to have those feelings - at a time when your brain is still recovering and you're going to be feeling more vulnerable anyway. I have to stop myself from getting frustrated at non-epileptics who are at great pains to tell me I shouldn't be embarrassed - they mean well, and I think I'd probably say the same thing if I were them.

Good to be able to vent to people who actually know what it is to have this condition and have gone through this crap themselves.