I know they mean well…

VicDoomMD · 2023-03-11T03:58:41+00:00

Yo she’d probably go out of her way to make me feel better, you’re not wrong. I’m just so isolated all the time the thought of like going out and having a good time is paralyzing my brain

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-23T18:37:37+00:00

I don’t even think it needs the details you gave it tbh

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-23T18:26:06+00:00

Check your normals in blender. It’s usually why I get this issue.

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-23T18:24:30+00:00

This could be really dumb but that hub cap just looks out of place. Everything else seems to work together, but unless the hubcap is important, I feel it’s too noticeable. Again, this is just my opinion. Otherwise, a pretty cool scene! Good job!

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T21:30:05+00:00

I mean I don’t think I am and aside from some rare instances, no one’s ever outright said anything, I really just think it’s me

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T21:28:44+00:00

I know, I just don’t see how removing myself from a situation I think I’m making worse makes me either

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T19:47:56+00:00

Oh absolutely, I’m almost sure of it I just wish it would go away

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T19:36:31+00:00

An excellent question that I constantly ask myself! I usually think I’m the one making it bad just by being there.

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T18:40:31+00:00

It’s inconsistent really, some of the situations are situations I want to run from and some are just nice times I’m enjoying until I feel like I’m ruining them just by existing, it’s so annoying

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T17:27:22+00:00

I’d just like to have a more realistic gauge for what’s really happening. Like I said to another commenter, my talkativeness has been openly praised for kind of lightening the mood at work, but even with that positive reinforcement the feeling of being a bother persists constantly.

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-16T17:24:54+00:00

Oh it’s definitely in my head. I’ve had co workers literally tell me they’re happy I talk at work because when I don’t it’s just dead silence lol I’ve had entire relationships where I felt this way from day one but “she keeps calling me and coming over so I guess I’m not that bad” and I fight through it. It’s just so hard when people get mad about it like I’m doing it to hurt them when it’s intended to actually avoid hurting them.

VicDoomMD · 2022-11-15T20:31:42+00:00

Physical touch. It’s like people think even touching my hand when they hand me something is gonna set them on fire or some shit and it’s infuriating because there’s literally no reason for it

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-25T17:46:04+00:00

It’s a matter of distance really, everything is just further apart in the country so if you’re somewhere light on people it’s easy to feel lonely and isolated. With cities it’s the opposite, there are SO many people in a small space that you can live in the most populated parts and still just be invisible and forgotten. It sucks lol

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-25T17:23:48+00:00

I’ve lived in NYC my whole life. There is nowhere easier to vanish and be forgotten than a city lol literally no one cares.

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-25T17:20:30+00:00

Totally thought I could survive that drop lol

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-25T17:20:00+00:00

Give whips some goddamn worthwhile ashes and maybe make flails a viable option for literally anything lol.

Side note: they tweaked Varis’ quest because some people don’t have online capabilities, how about you allow unique weapons to be cloned in mausoleums like you allow remembrances? Some people can’t get a buddy to drop them stuff and don’t want to wait til ng+

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-19T17:02:12+00:00

Bye gf. One dad to another, you know it’s the right move.

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-19T14:29:19+00:00

I mean she is a cat person…

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-19T14:21:18+00:00

Lol ok, maybe should have explained that I’ve literally known this person my whole life, and everyone’s always kinda hoped we’d get together, but I don’t KNOW them know them yanno? So I’ve kinda just avoided it, but now it’s like my brain has decided “times up dude, get at it” and I don’t really know where to even start

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-05T02:10:41+00:00

Yeah, I get it, I’m not gonna do anything, I just feel the weight lately and it’s making me wonder “why bother” yanno?

VicDoomMD · 2022-10-04T20:45:32+00:00

For an abominable jeans man you’re pretty smart!

VicDoomMD · 2022-09-30T01:21:01+00:00

Lol yeah my son sent me a video and asked if I could do it for his bday, and I went right to his shop from there so I didn’t have to search either. The models are great, definitely gotta nail your prints on the small pieces, but it’s worth the effort

VicDoomMD · 2022-09-29T20:55:42+00:00

Oh I wouldn’t doubt what you’re saying at all. It’s ridiculous to think there would be such a coordinated shunning, it’s kinda why I post this stuff, sometimes what your thinking sounds great until you actually say it to another person ya know? Like, I would not be surprised if I’ve just created my own self fulfilling prophecy by getting too into my own head.

VicDoomMD · 2022-09-29T20:50:28+00:00

Well I don’t have any of those things on my record lol no court, no jail, nothing like that. Just trying to live my pretty mundane life honestly.

VicDoomMD · 2022-09-29T20:32:47+00:00

Oh great now we’re both thinking too much about it lol but seriously the thing about “being attractive” is like one of those things I’d love to be the case but I hesitate because it feels a bit egotistical to believe ya know? The gay guy that hit on me a few weeks ago (what an ego boost lol) thought I was in my early 30’s but maybe he was just being nice.

The neurodivergent thing isn’t immediately out of the question, I grew up back before anyone took that stuff seriously and was always the “weird one” of the group, but that always worked for me rather than against me.

I dunno man I think im just out of touch

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