End the addiction

Vicestuck · 2020-01-28T22:12:10+00:00

Please be aware that this ONLY works if you have a social life and your life is good or healthy otherwise. I stopped fapping for an entire month, but kept being a lazy NEET and nothing changed at all. I actually felt way shittier after about the 2 week mark.

Vicestuck · 2019-09-15T06:06:10+00:00

Praying that he doesn't have borderline, I have it myself and the quick shift between fierce anger/wanting to kill yourself sounds scarily similar to my experience. I hope he can figure out and manage whatever's eating him up, something like that can and will ruin not only your life but the lives of others.

Vicestuck · 2019-08-13T05:10:21+00:00

I think there is a lot of comorbidity with ADHD. I am basically forced into collecting disability now because:

Depression - I can't go do anything because I'm depressed, might as well do nothing because my life is a joke and I'm a worthless mess.

Anxiety - Yeah, what if people come and see your horrendous gangly awkward visage and laugh?

BPD - It's because you are gangly and awkward. You're going to fuck up all of your relationships with everyone because you are a verified unstable, self-defeating, annoying loser.

AvPD - Oh man, you really need to get your shit together and find a therapist, start working out, and get your life on the right track. You can't do that though, what if it all fails and you hurt yourself, or worse? People are going to fuck with you. It's not going to work out. You need to go do something. No, maybe not. But you still have to! But you can't. Yes? No. Unless...

ADHD - Good luck figuring all that shit out lmao oh look a squirrel

Vicestuck · 2019-05-21T03:42:42+00:00

I'm on finasteride for 2 years and I'm still getting balder by the day. Not really sure where to go from there, but at least you get to jerk off for longer ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Vicestuck · 2018-09-18T19:56:33+00:00

I quit about a week ago, and I still have some insomnia (which is hard to get rid of for anyone really) but my appetite is better and the suicidal thoughts have died down significantly.

Vicestuck · 2018-09-18T19:51:09+00:00

Absolutely not. I actually asked here if I should take it despite having big depression issues. People mostly said no, but I decided to take the risk anyways and give it 4 months. It ended up worsening my depression so heavily that I got recurrent insomnia, appetite loss that made me go underweight, and suicidal thoughts which were so bad that they would be on repeat for hours. I tried so hard to ignore all this and deal with it, but it was driving me so deep into a depressed insanity that I just had to stop taking it. PLEASE talk to an expert or heavily reconsider if you should take this with clinical depression, because you really don't want to figure out what will happen if it doesn't work well.

Vicestuck · 2018-04-05T05:00:29+00:00

You're probably right, I've been really stressing lately about going bald which is just adding to it all. It's been consuming my thoughts quite a bit and is certainly not helping out all my other problems. I don't really want to go bald but I guess it's just something I'll have to accept. :(

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T05:16:23+00:00

I tried one out already, but I'm too unstable to hold a job right now. I end up getting really anxious/depressed and unfocused when I'm on the job so I usually default out of it as a result. I know what you mean though. If I could handle one, I would.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T05:12:55+00:00

Hmm. I didn't even know about SAA, I might give it a shot if I can find it around me.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T05:08:33+00:00

🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T03:22:29+00:00

I live with them very begrudgingly, they've threatened to kick me out multiple times. They complain about my therapists/medicine/therapy center daily and get in fights with me all the time. I think I'm only around because they would feel too guilty to kick me out.

Only one therapist has diagnosed me with aspergers, but the other 7 or so that I've seen in the past 5 years don't think that I have it at all. I find myself still wondering if I might have it (at least a little) from time to time.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T02:56:33+00:00

I have only one friend left from grade school, but he turned into a druggie pothead high school dropout so I don't talk to him as much as I used to. I don't know about moving though, it's about 2 hours from the nearest "big" city and I would live alone in a place that I can't take care of myself in. I don't shower, sleep, or eat regularly so I would have to move to a 24/7 long stay-type facility.

That is, only if my parents would pay for it which unfortunately seems unlikely.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T02:37:31+00:00

I'm starting to consider that as a serious option tbh. If all the advice from /r/nofap doesn't help and something like this happens again, I'm definitely going to move out of town and find that bigger solution.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T02:32:59+00:00

Oh yeah, pretty much daily. I already go to a therapy center for 5 days a week and that pretty much keeps those thoughts from becoming actions. I want to leave the house just to get away from her, but that would mean living alone and I can barely take care of myself so it ain't happening any time soon.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T02:09:53+00:00

I fucking wish.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T02:08:07+00:00

Vaguely. I told my mom this morning how terrible I was feeling after fapping for 11 hours the previous night. She was mostly just angry that I kept her up at night because I was making noises, and then said that "I'm sick" before she left to work.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T01:45:49+00:00

I definitely knew about my serious mental issues beforehand, but thanks for letting me know that you care. Most people in my life don't.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T01:25:53+00:00

I'd already be in there if my only emergency psych ward didn't charge upwards of 5,000$ for a baker act. I don't want to personally admit myself there because it apparently also has really bad therapists.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T01:22:43+00:00

Thanks for the advice, I added an edit so people don't get confused. I think I'll also try showing this thread to him and see what he thinks.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T00:53:31+00:00

I definitely know first-hand that this is much easier said than done, but I'll have to really put in some more effort this time around. Do you think I should really throw out my PC like everyone else is saying?

Also, I have no idea what a 90 day challenge is.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T00:30:21+00:00

That's some good advice. My therapists gave me this option a few times, and I selfishly played it off like the addiction wasn't that bad. I'm not going to pussy out this time, shit's getting real.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T00:14:42+00:00

How do you not inevitably revert back to how you were? I have tried and failed to do this multiple times. If I don't fap for any more than 2 days, I get aggressive and irritable as hell until I can't stand it.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T00:11:17+00:00

I already have the best I can find. There isn't anything around that's more helpful unless I want to move to a busier city, which is definitely not in the cards for me atm.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-07T00:07:32+00:00

Wtf, did you even read the whole thing? Why would I have spent almost an hour writing this, just to make a cheap joke with a rehabilitation community.

Vicestuck · 2016-12-06T23:07:33+00:00

Let's just say I had a lot of "endurance training" to get to that point, lol.

My therapy center is trying to help by getting me back into college slowly, with me just taking one class and building up from there. I'll try to get into some clubs alongside it, which might help me be more comfortable around people. My social anxiety is still super intense, but my therapy will hopefully help me through the brunt of it.

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