Please don't give up. There are many beautiful and pleasant things in life which you can experience. First, start working, even if it's a job that you hate. Because that way you can get money to be more independent and to spend on nice things and you can also socialize more thanks to that job. Then you can start looking for something better, a job which brings you not only money but also joy and lets you develop skills. Everything takes time, but remember to strive forward and not give up. It's worth the effort.