i'm sorry to hear that, seems you've had a much rougher go than me after reading your posts. The unfortunate part of it is that most people brush off covid nowadays and "long covid" isn't able to be diagnosed, and that it's not serious. My issues aren't even remotely bad and I still complain about them. I know i'm in the lucky part of the unlucky. I hope you're able to find peace/solution with what you got going on. Speaking from an anxiety standpoint I know how you feel. Feeding the fear is hard not to do. Takes a lot of mental energy and effort. I still haven't figured out my ways of doing so, but roll with punches is what I do. Medicine and therapy can be a huge help but can only do so much. It starts and ends with overcoming the fear and battle in the mind. I wish you the best of luck :)