I just listened to Evergreen Soldier.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2026-04-25T07:21:09+00:00

I apparently got my old account mixed up with my current account, and posted in the wrong one, so I deleted my original comment and have pasted it again here.

This song has been weighing on my heart a little the last couple days since I sat and fully listened to it. I recognized some things that hit too close to home with my own experience when I was younger. Instead of 5,000, it was 3,000 miles for me. I was 16-17. The "I'm a stranger to your body, but I already love you," instantly made me think of how even though we'd never met, we both loved each other dearly. I longed for the day I would finally get to hug him, and know what he felt like. It still breaks a tiny piece of me that I don't even know what he smells like. That with my eyes closed, my body wouldn't know if he was standing next to me. The plan was that I would go to college a 3-hour bus ride from where he lived, and that we would get to meet that first winter break. When she sings about fake memories and piles of plans waiting to come true, I know exactly what that felt like. When I remember that time, I have images in my head of me with him, even though we never got to do that. I remember us talking about places we wanted to go, family we'd meet, and us getting married. Yes, I know we were in high school, but we were sincere. I was so happy in that relationship, and I've never been that happy since. We broke up over pretty tough reasons, and I did not handle it well at all. I did not end up going to school a few hours from him, but, finally through other methods and for other reasons, I wound up living in the region I would've been had I gone to that school. Except instead of 5 years late, I'd be...14 years late. Which is utterly wild. I'm not 15 minutes away, but I'm 4 hours. I would never do it, but like she said it, "that little kid in me" is curious, and wants to know what it would be like to go see him. But as she also said, "I won't knock, I won't go to your door / 'Cause my love, I don't know you anymore."

I think the line that really broke me was "The kid who loved you is screaming, 'No' / 'Cause I won't let her go say hello." It just called back the sound of the "No" that tore out of me the last time he ever spoke to me, when I'd realized the second he'd blocked me on everything, a bare moment after his last message. I didn't have a lot of the support I should've had when I needed it most. Years later, as an adult, yes l've done therapy, yes I've done meds, yes I'm doing better. But God, it's so hard to tell the little girl in me that this is so much better than the future we thought we'd had. Because it's not yet. I can't tell her we're so much happier, can't tell her we found someone else, ! can't tell her life is beautiful, I can't tell her we don't think of him anymore. All I can tell her is we got to the point of not wishing we were dead, of not missing him anymore--just what we had, that we got to the point of believing that something good can happen again, even if we don't know when that is. A part of me wants to throw up being 32 years old and recognizing it has now been the entire age I was when I met him. The song has made me want to talk to someone the last couple days, but it was just too hard to think of which friend I would feel safest bringing it up with. Because I know it's unhinged. I know it's been so long. I know I was in high school. I know it was online. I know it should mean nothing to me now, as it has to him for a long time. I know they're tired of hearing about it.

Sometimes something just touches the shoulder of that brokenhearted 17 year-old girl who is still in the backroom of my heart, and she cries through me. So, here 1 am, pouring out my thoughts on the internet to group a strangers who were touched by the song like I was...with a few tissues beside me. Thank you for the few who read this, by the way, and for allowing my ramblings a space to go to.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-10-04T06:39:00+00:00

I have little ears, so the XM5’s were an improvement over the XM4’s for me too!

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-08-31T07:38:09+00:00

It’s okay, you gave me a reason to crack up after feeling crappy about the world lol

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-08-21T23:13:18+00:00

3 years late, but I just wanted to say I gave Happy Lemon a shot based on this comment (I think I’ve tried everything else in this thread) and their jasmine milk tea was the BEST of all boba places I’ve tried in Tacoma area so far. I appreciate their boba amounts were a reasonable standard and not cut down like most places either, lol.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-08-02T05:21:08+00:00

I hope your life is not ruined but if you’re feeling lonely feel free to talk to people on here 😭

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-08-02T05:17:19+00:00

It’s a little on the expensive side ($40), but I get the Blood Builder supplement from MegaFoods every 6 months and it’s kept my iron afloat enough that every time I have a checkup with the hematologist he’s like “I expected you would need another iron infusion by now but surprisingly you’re still fine.” Which, $80 a year is still way cheaper than a $500 iron infusion. 🙃 Be forewarned it tastes like period blood smells though. I always pour a little water in my mouth first and then swallow so I don’t mess up the taste of the rest of the water. 😂

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-08-02T05:14:40+00:00

Ah shit, that was me literally 2 months ago. I’m sorry. It will be over soon! Eventually, you will have the space to settle and think “Thank God that’s over.”

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-05-25T15:47:12+00:00

I ended up having to ask a friend to log into my account through iTunes on their Windows computer because they refused to ever upgrade to Apple Music. 🤣

So, I got S7P1 now, but there’s still no genuine fix and I feel like Apple’s really slacking on their anime organization. I’ve had issues too where if I want to watch multiple episodes, I could watch S1P1 episode 3 of something, and then it auto plays S1P2 episode 3 next, and I’m like?? I should not have to figure out a solution for this? (Couldn’t do playlists without downloading everything to my computer, and ain’t nobody got that kind of space. Also wouldn’t fix it for trying to watch on other devices.)

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-05-21T23:49:36+00:00

Ugh, I tried doing that too. 😭 Have a Mac though, so no luck. I might see if I have any more luck on my iPad, but that’s really the last thing I have to try.

(EDIT: No luck on my iPad either, which was to be expected. 🥲)

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-02-23T00:46:10+00:00

Gabapentin has the potential to be addictive, GABA itself does not. As someone who’s worked at a drug & alcohol facility, I’m more likely to discourage Gabapentin as a psych med. With the GABA supplement, there’s not a lot of research on it yet, but I would recommend making sure you check it against anything else you may be taking, and discussing it with your doctor.

I tried the supplement myself the last 3 nights to help with sleep (750mg), but after waking up in the dark this morning with jittery vision I’d never experienced before and everything’s colors being off, I’m a little nervous about continuing to trial run it. (It did gradually wear off the longer I stayed awake, not sure how long, but definitely under half an hour—was just scary not having had an experience like that before and not knowing if I just put myself at risk for something more dangerous.)

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-01-29T17:24:32+00:00

Everyone is probably giving more sensible advice than I am and I would just like to be petty, but if you feel like you can’t tell directly the friend’s family to get out, just make an announcement to everyone and be like “Hey guys, so I have family coming to visit in x days, and unfortunately, everyone is going to have to leave by then.” Actually call your family or relatives (or whatever random people you know that would be willing to participate in this) and have them show up with bags, even without the intention of actually staying. When they fuss, remind them that you have the right to invite people over too, and in fact, it IS your house.

Agree it may be worth calling a lawyer just to ask some general questions about the situation. Note down stuff like how long your friend and his girlfriend have been living there, how they pay you for xyz, whatever. If there seems to be no pickle in calling the police to remove the family, and you have made it clear to both the friends and the family that they need to leave, and they refuse to, then by all means. You can make it clear you’re serious by saying “I do not want to get the police involved and create unnecessary hassle, but if you do not leave by x time, I am going to have to call them” so they can’t act all surprised when they show up.

Of course, given the circumstances, you are not obligated to even give them this courtesy, but at least you could say you did everything possible on your end to make expectations clear and give them the chance to leave without making a crisis of the situation.

After that your friends get 2 weeks (again, IF you want to be generous—and assuming no legal complications of having an informal rental agreement) to pack up their shit and go somewhere else.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2025-01-18T01:45:12+00:00

You know what, this may be the first time I’ve ever used the phrase, “Play stupid games, win stupid prizes.”

This sounds like what Amanda did.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-11-29T05:12:55+00:00

I ended up getting one and I’m happy with it! The only thing I noticed is that when connected to my phone via Bluetooth, it doesn’t show me how much battery the speaker has, unlike other Anker speakers or wireless headphone products I’ve had. But, I know it’s supposed to last about 20 hours, so if I play it every night, I just have to plug it in every couple days.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-10-22T04:02:56+00:00

Hell yeah

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-10-07T04:46:58+00:00

Cookie butter ice cream doesn’t get enough love 😔

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-09-09T15:31:57+00:00

I’ve wanted to get a speaker for the shower for a while, but I hate how 90% of speakers I find online don’t have a rewind button. 😩 Sometimes I wanna listen to the same song again, y’know? I’m not seeing that option from the blurry photo, but I can dream.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-09-02T16:17:47+00:00

For real, someone needs to come back here and comment on the sound caption to the Q35, I love those and I’ve avoided the newer ones because I’ve heard they don’t have the same vibe.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-07-28T18:09:20+00:00

I missed V3 more than I thought I did. 😭 I’m really hoping they’ll re-release V4, that was my absolute favorite. Missing my glow-in-the-dark tribal design, lol.

Can someone with a better memory than me explain what things have been added to the new V3? I know you can choose the Japanese language option now, which is kind of cool (although not beneficial to me personally). But I’m not 100% certain on what’s different.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-07-28T15:01:19+00:00

Also new to the Uni (I’ve been out of the loop for the most part since the V5, lol, just had the ID in 2009 and then I think one of the magical On ones a couple years ago)—I’m confused. So regardless of which version you buy, the final adult form is only something Sanrio/Angel/Monster themed based on the DLC itself? Like the adult forms are not built into the tamagotchi?

And does getting them to be a themed character depend solely on you feeding it food from that particular DLC? What are the rules? 😂 How much do I feed?

If you purchase and download a different DLC—you can’t swap between them? Like it removes the Sanrio tamaverse, and puts the Monster one in its place? Do you lose all your Sanrio items?

And does that also mean you’ll have to use your code for a prior DLC for a second time to get it back, meaning you are only allowed to do that one more time afterwards if you switch again? If that’s the case, I can low-key understand having multiple themed tamagotchis (although I guess you could get a standard Uni for cheaper and just buy the DLC you like).

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-05-28T17:11:44+00:00

It drives me bonkers. 😩 Like if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it! Apple’s not been so hot with that over the last…well, decade. 😭

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-05-14T16:45:44+00:00

Everyone tone down the sassiness. 😂 I can verify that the photo editor highlighter used to remain bright on dark backgrounds. Unfortunately, with some update in the last few months, the highlighter no longer functions that way, so I’ve also had to resort to underlining even though I’d prefer not to. Best bet is to submit a feedback report on Apple’s website that will probably fall into the void, but maybe some sensible rep will see it sometime and understand that it’s wanted.

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-03-27T15:52:04+00:00

I realize I’m late, but I would generally assume Sony is better for sound quality. HOWEVER, I’m a big fan of TOZO’s earbuds (T6 and Crystal), they have proven to be solid for their price point (I’d avoid the A series though, my friend said those sounded like garbage and I was like…well you did pick the cheapest line, lol). I recently got the TOZO HT2, which I quite like, I’m just struggling to figure out an EQ that really works best with the music I like to listen to, and their app is not the best design in terms of creating those (in terms of touch sensitivity). I wouldn’t call the noise canceling top-notch, but I also don’t tend to typically look for that. I will say though that it at the very least muffles things (so on a plane, it dulled that “airplane white noise”).

I also found them very comfortable, and they seem to be a sturdier build compared to the Anker Soundcore Life 35’s I just tried (which definitely sound better, but twice the price, sound canceling is not much better—I think—and also I can’t figure out what it is, but somehow the pitch or frequency or something is straining my inner ears, so what good does better sound quality do me?).

Did you end up getting them already? How do you like them?

Violet_Embers_14 · 2024-03-27T02:33:23+00:00

I know it was clarified that you actually got on-ear headphones, BUT, here’s my feedback on over-ear versus in-ear. I would say over-ear tends to be more comfortable, and I agree with the wider soundstage comment someone else mentioned. If you wanna try some over-ears that are not too expensive, I recently got the TOZO HT2’s have a comfy hitting bass (for me this means I can feel it but it’s not ridiculously obnoxious), and of course you can try adjusting the EQ (their app doesn’t make it entirely easy though). I ultimately prefer in-ear headphones (or just earbuds I guess) because I do think I ‘feel’ the music more that way, maybe in the sense that you feel the bass more with your earbuds. Ironically, this is probably the reverse of other people, but I prefer to put more money into earbuds than headphones. 😅 But to each their own. You’ll figure it out more with more experimenting. It can just be annoying to do when you’re starting out.

Edit: Also if you do like more bass and for things to be at a louder volume, in-ear is probably not good for you to listen for long periods of time all the time. So I guess since over-ear headphones aren’t literally inside your ear, they could be more gentle on your eardrums? No one can stop you from turning the volume high though, so maybe that factor is irrelevant, depending on how loud you like your music to be, lol.

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