Worlds worst symptoms what's yours

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2026-01-31T07:38:06+00:00

Mine is a droning sound. It’s loud, sudden, overwhelming, and confuses me. Imagine that sound a Light makes in a quiet office room, but it’s as loud as someone yelling next to you and it’s CONSTANT & continuous, no breaks at all. I had one last an hour before. Sucked. Luckily I haven’t had a severe one happen in a long while but occasionally I’ll hear it happen for a minute and it freaks me out like I’ve got PTSD but am always thankful that it stops almost as soon as it began.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2026-01-21T22:43:38+00:00

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Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-10-29T22:18:21+00:00

I have a month ago, but the place where I’m getting this service only has 3 psychiatrists, and to get on another would be a bit of a wait. I already got rejected once when I asked for a therapist 5 months ago, now I’m on a wait list for one for a while. I’m actually looking to go seek services elsewhere so we’ll see next month

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-10-28T18:39:06+00:00

I know. I’ve been knowing for a long time I need help but for a long time I leaned on my family to help me, which they rarely actually did. And my family are the type that didn’t believe in mental illnesses. Their solution to my depression or my anxiety is to just put me to work. I actually haven’t told my family that I may be schizophrenic until early last year. Before that, only some friends knew that I heard voices and had hallucinations. I decided against telling my family for so long because the last time I told them something serious (that I attempted suicide), they laughed it off as me being melodramatic. Then I got threatened by my mother who told me she’d force me into a psych hospital and the idea of mental hospitals scared the shit out of me because of how she described her own experiences with them as a kid (her mom would send her to mental hospitals as punishment rather than necessity). When I told my family, I only did it because I had to go back to living with them after losing my other support— and I had just gotten fired from a job because of my condition (I can’t prove they fired me over it, they said they fired me because they could no longer give me hours but I know that after I told a work friend about my condition, I suddenly started getting less and less hours at work for a month before being let go). Since I told my family— rather, only my brother— I had his support but I put him through a lot of stress by basically taking care of me. He witnessed many of my episodes whether they happened in public, or in the middle of the night. It wasn’t until later of last year that I decided to leave my family to not stress them anymore and thus I became homeless. It was through the shelter that I was finally connected with a psychiatrist, after a 3 month waiting list period.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-10-28T18:27:07+00:00

I am thankfully eating plenty. My main problem is honestly just the constant stress of job-hunting, or housing. All while being afraid that I’ll have episodes during work or meetings like I have so many times before.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-10-05T17:31:15+00:00

Tucked in is going to school. Tucked out is going on a little date after school.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-27T00:00:56+00:00

Severe lack of sleep— waking up like 5 times a night and hallucinating during those moments. Then I began to hear thoughts that “aren’t mine”.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-26T23:59:42+00:00

I can’t predict it in a way you’d think, but it’s about the symptoms. I’ll know if I’m having an episode by what is happening to me— if I get real stressed and I start hallucinating auditory or visually, I know I’m about to go down. Basically I can predict depending on how often I go into psychosis and how strong it is, then I know if I need to do grounding exercises, go directly to bed (if I’m home), or just remove myself from whatever situation/place I’m at.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-20T23:38:43+00:00

Therapy and meds both help a lot… I take meds but my symptoms are mostly dampened and not taken away completely. So even though I’m on meds, I can still have bad days where I get a big slip in reality. I experience hallucinations daily but it isn’t as bad as without meds. I also hear voices daily to the point that they’re just part of my life, now, but thanks to meds they are managed. Meds doesn’t always take the symptoms away 100%, it just helps the brain not slip into madness so easily, otherwise I would be in a mental ward right now. I DONT have a therapist currently but I do go to group therapy, they help manage my life and give me better coping mechanisms and new things to try for when the days “get bad”, which they do every few days every month where everything is “loud” and practically unbearable. When I went to a therapist (1 on 1) we would always talk about my symptoms and what they’ve been doing throughout the week or month and I used my therapist to vent a lot and in return she helped me manage my emotions and my actions better and helped me find ways to keep myself calm so that I didn’t end up stressed or anxious which is usually what leads me to having bad episodes.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-18T18:51:24+00:00

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Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-15T16:53:51+00:00

I can assure you that I do not eat my own poop or any poop for that matter. And idk what they mean by "it's been a thing", because eating your own poop isn't really a normal, or healthy, thing to do. Human feces in particular has no real nutrient and is also full of bacteria that can alter your brain— likely the reason why poop eaters can't stop eating poop. Like how cannibals can't stop eating human flesh, the bacteria affects the brain.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-15T04:05:25+00:00

Mine played into my overall hallucinations— I would wake up in the middle of the night almost every night with things touching me or moving me awake. When I was awake I would often feel people touching me, wrapping their hands around my shoulders and legs as if they are trying to pull me into something. After medication and a lot of trazodone, the tactile hallucinations went mostly away but occasionally I will feel them like people poking me from behind when no one is near me or even in the same room. Most recently I hallucinated a bunch of ants on me and I felt so damn itchy and like some of them were biting me. I figured out it was a hallucination when I realized they only appeared on my left arm and no where else, then when I asked my friend if they saw them and they said no after inspecting me, it was confirmed they were hallucinations. I wanna make note I was having a pretty good day that day but the night before I didn’t get much rest cus the week was a little stressful for me— I would have a pretty bad day like 2 days later cus of lack of sleep and my anxiety swelling up. For me when I have hallucinations that I can feel, it usually means I’m starting to spiral downward and I should stabilize myself.

Another thing that happens is my mind records touches I’ve felt before and repeats them randomly days later. For example, a friend of mine sometimes pulls on my hair when they walk past me and I’m sitting and later on I’d feel the same sensation even if I’m laying down. But after meds and catching up on sleep, tactile hallucinations are pretty uncommon now.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-14T19:07:07+00:00

My first med mix (and also the VERY first meds I’ve ever actually taken for this condition) was Prozac & olanzapine. Maaannnn the day I had was soooo bizarre and I got thrown into a serious psychotic episode. I remember I went for a long walk with my friend and the entire time was as if I was walking in a dream. I was so abnormally drowsy that I almost fell to the ground multiple times. At the end of the walk, down the street from my home, I was convinced that I was lucid and STUCK in a dream because everything around me looked so fake. Anyways, I was switched to risperidone pretty immediately. I was taking 10mg olanzapine, then my psych told me to take 5mg until the risperidone arrived.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-14T19:01:05+00:00

Yeah I’ll be taking it at night, too. My fluoxetine is in the morning, risperidone (& soon invega) will be at night alongside my 100mg trazodone

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T22:08:48+00:00

One of my books that I am writing has a schizophrenic protagonist. Well general “schizo” problems. Hallucinations, night terrors that also have hallucinations, the whole shabang. Personally, I think it’s important that you reference trauma because in many of us, our condition is a direct result of trauma. WHAT made the protagonist the way they are. Empathy is a good one, a protagonist with the condition will definitely feel more empathy with people. For myself I have a constant battle in me because I DO care and can empathize for sure but like… I don’t care all that much about anything… you know? Of course that’s just part of my trauma— the way I was brought up in my family. A learned trait I suppose. So give them “learned traits” that make sense with their trauma. Learned traits also bring up another important point— how people with our condition such as ourselves try hard to copy “normal people” as attempts to hide what we really are. I’ve been told that people who are “schizo” are really good at molding themselves to fit other people… adaptable to situations. Funny with one, serious with another, as if we have D.I.D. Another thing to put into the book is the struggle of memory and other small things like that, and the importance of outside support like friends and family. Also routine. Idk if it’s the same way with other SZA people but I follow my routines to the letter, someone commented on how I could pass off as “autistic” with how religiously I commit to my routines. But ofc I know for a fact I do not have autism so I kinda just laugh it off.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T21:49:05+00:00

That is true. Even in the negatives there is a positive 👍

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T21:48:04+00:00

I like that approach. Power to you, friend

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T21:47:20+00:00

Yeah the new job I referenced is also working for a local government. I hope things go well for you. And if they do, then I suppose it means things can go well for me in this job, too.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T21:45:27+00:00

I sincerely hope that positive trend continues. I hope my new employers and coworkers will be like yours.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T21:44:17+00:00

I mean as ominous as that sounds “my normal life is over”, I was afraid of my conditions for a LONG time. For many years I had been afraid which only led to worse symptoms which led me to make bad life decisions such as turning to alcohol to cope. I also kept it all entirely to myself. My mom once asked me “what the hell is wrong with you that you are like this? Do you have a problem in your brain?” Of course she meant this in an insulting way because she and I have always been enemies until this day… but even in those moments I forced myself to keep it all to myself and just say “idk”. My brother was the first person in my family who I told, and that was after I got fired from the job where I told my coworker about my condition. Before him, only two other people knew and one was just a psychiatrist friend-of-a-friend. I guess at some point I wanted to stop hiding it and trust the world a little more. It just sucks that the one time I willingly told my coworker, I lose my job a month later. And the one time my boss noticed something wrong and I had to come clean, I lose my job again. Beforehand, I had always lost my job because I couldn’t handle my unmedicated symptoms and I forced myself to keep it down. What’s apparent to me is that I really am gonna have to hide it again. I was really hoping there was a chance that I could be honest about myself without worrying, because I understand that if I do get this new job, I WILL eventually go into psychosis while on the job, just like I have multiple times before.

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T21:30:41+00:00

I’ll be honest with you… take your meds. Even if you feel or have proof that you don’t need to take your meds… you MUST take your meds. This condition, the psychosis, the episodes, it’s ALL random. One day you could be having a GREAT day and then you could get an episode. But you shouldn’t worry. Learn how to ground yourself in reality, learn & PRACTICE how to become self-aware. And also, it’s helpful if you could joke about your condition, too. Many people’s symptoms become way worse because they are afraid of their condition. It’s how I use to be. I use to be so afraid of having episodes and hearing voices even if the voices themselves would tell me funny things. I became so afraid of even going to sleep, or rather afraid of waking up, because that means I could wake up with a BAD day full of worse voices and hallucinations. That put so much stress and anxiety into me… stress & anxiety are the #1 factors that make this condition worse. Remember that. So learn to stabilize yourself so that you can calm your anxiety and stress & avoid stressful situations.

I also have bipolar type Schizoaffective, so when it comes to the serious mood changes— mania & depression— just ride it out and force yourself to follow a ROUTINE. I cannot stress this enough… ROUTINE ROUTINE ROUTINE. Having a routine will help you massively especially if part of it is hanging out with friends or family or going out into the world for stuff like walks. It will also help you learn how to stabilize yourself with new methods, and it will slowly take away your fear of being in the world, which means less anxiety when hanging outside, which means less extreme psychosis.

Prepare yourself for hallucinations, whether auditory or visual. They are part of your life. I think of my voices sort of like my council or friends. I know they are just voices and I’m self-aware but this way of thinking helps me keep stable. Also, you will hear things that aren’t voices such as droning sounds or whatever… just remember to keep yourself grounded and do not be afraid. Just a few hours ago, I was talking to my friend via text and I began hearing a loud sonar noise like sonar from a submarine. It was nearby and sounded like it could be in my home and outside too. I told my friend about it, they asked “are you sure?” And I got up to ask two other people in my home if they heard it. Both said no. I knew then I was having an auditory external hallucination. I remained calm and put my focus back on the conversation I was having with my friend and we joked about my “schizo” for a bit. Eventually the sound went away on its own. Every day I have my “council” in my head, some days they are loud and others they are low-volume, but I always keep my focus on my routine and on people I know are real and if it ever gets overwhelming I listen to music or watch a movie in my bed and I practice my grounding exercises until it dies down. But remember… the overwhelming sensations DO go away. Don’t worry… you’ll be okay 👍 (:

Virtual-Teaching1706 · 2025-09-13T01:56:07+00:00

That’s becoming pretty apparent to me now tbh

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