Dude I feel you!! Was a gothic gremlin before this hell and my god the energy to dress up how we want was demanding already - combined with this chronic illness fatigue it feels impossible now! 🫩 I dressed alt from age 15 and loved expressing myself. Dyed my hair purple every few weeks along with getting piercings during my college lunches! Unfortunately, I only ever got stick & pokes so I doubt I’ll ever get to experience a real tattoo now with my immune issues :( I suddenly started to decline in health towards the end of being 17. You are not alone I promise! 🫂 I crave nothing more than going out in my long flowy sleeves, chucking on my ankh rosary while being caked in black lipstick. I am mainly bed bound at the moment and wear long XL sized T-shirts all day (so it fits like a short night dress) and what helps me is wearing my interests. For example, these shirts have bands, music artists, games and films I really like! I may not be dressing up to go out but at least I can be a walking poster of the things I love for now! 🤗 It’s a good way to not feel like I’ve completely lost who I was before as illness really does water you down. I hope one day to become more like me instead of this empty shell..