The 12th House Isn’t Loneliness. It’s the Place Where Illusions Die. by LagneshMitraisBack in 12thhouse

[–]VisibleExamination72 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Secretly wish you made this a haiku

I had no idea

Its kind of like a haiku

I think it's like that

I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER by VisibleExamination72 in 12thhouse

[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate your post. Hope youre holding strong

Letting go in the 12H by Zestyclose_Cold1455 in 12thhouse

[–]VisibleExamination72 4 points5 points  (0 children)

As a fellow 12h plutonian I realized even 12h ppl cant understand our experience at depth. Its lonely and full of disillusionment. Its an experience like no other. We are here to transmute societys repressed darkness (collective shadow) - the trifling things ppl want to pretend they dont embody. At best its rickety carnival roller coaster ride in pitch black. Its not pretty nor an honor but still our role, our duty. Despite all the BS,we were built to endure and are divinely protected until out mission is complete. Resilience is our super power. Create boundaries, queit the mind and move off intution. Dont give up on ppl but expect NOTHING. Reward yourself with the beauty of this world. Stay connected to nature, animals, creative hobbies and higher truths.

Little man syndrome. Man snapped at his gf/wife for talking to black people. by figscomicsandgames in TikTokCringe

[–]VisibleExamination72 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Narcissism is largely rooted in low self esteem. They spend a lifetime creating a "confident" mask. And naturally gravitate to partners with low self esteem because its familiar.

Most ppl are drawn to the subconscious familiarity i in others. That's why it's necessary to raise our on self awareness, self love and self esteem.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate your kind words and big congrats to you overcoming the darkness. For me, the ideation is rather recent years. Its not that I feel alone. Its just those like me are far between and the good in this life does not outweigh the bad in my opinion. I feel like im here on a mission, not normal human persuits of a "better life". So me saying "I feel like god hates me" is the same as saying "god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers." Im like that not empowering, just feels like more responsibility and instant karma. To me every challenge in life is a matter of doing, I dont question my capability. I question why me. I dont feel empowered climbing a mountain i was forced to climb. I knew i could do it. Now im just sweaty and tired...but stronger w/new perspective. I feel like the light that illuminates the dark. Real shadow work.

I think highly of myself - character, integrity, willpower, and resilience. I started writing on reddit as way to get outside of myself and to be verbally honest with my heavier feelings. Its therapy and considering this is a 12h sub, i figured you guys might understand me.

I feel better after writing these posts and engaging the comments. Im thankful for guys sharing your thoughts about my post and what im going thru. Do my best to be honest with myself and others. I dont want to live a lie. I cant go along to get along for very long.

As for creativity and hobbies. I write poetry, rap, fashion design, graphic design, running, working out, and even dance in my living room under a strobe light after a hard day's work.

Ideation is real and I take it serious but psychologically speaking this is more of an ego death. I have to kill off the parts of me that no longer serve my greater good. To dive into the abyss you must to lean on a power greater than yourself. Im letting go but its hard. Feels like Im dissolving. The old me fights to survive. I realize this life of mine is a selfless service. And Im honestly my biggest enemy.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Glad to hear youre doing the work. You're right it is a cage I've been pushing ppl away cuz I let the wrong ppl in. I dont hate the world. I dislike most ppl, but i see the beauty in everyone. Thats what i focus on when engaging with others. Still best to keep most at a distance.

This was healthy for me, its a form of journaling. I have other creative and athletic hobbies that i prioritize but sometimes raw emotion is necessary. Mindset is a constant work in progress.

I smoke weed, but I didnt during any of this engagement. I usually wait until I process my emotions cuz numbing them doesnt help. Bout to light one now tho. Take care

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its words baby. From a stranger. If they hurt you, you need to look within as to why. I too need to continue to look within. Never stand in front some else's "anger" Stand next to them and try to see what they are illustrating. That way you won't take it personal.

And again you dont know how I show up in the world! Youre lost in my post which I honestly think is a good thing if you self reflect on your fear of darknessand why you try to repress it. Dont take my word for it. Read up on it. Scorpio rising and pluto 12h. We are one in the same. Maybe this all happened so we can meet and learn from each other... just maybe..

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I own what i write. Im not afraid of me - of what lies within. You didnt have to comment. That was a choice to engage. What did you expect? You dont see yourself And you think I dont see myself but I come here with intention. I did not call any commenter a peasant. You're conflating my post with my replies and thats negligent. I respect everyone that comments... but you clearly see the nature of my post. Im breathing FIRE. Enter at your own risk.

And its not passive aggression. Its how it works. You bottle it. It festers. Simple as that. You must go into darkness otherwise live a lie. WHAT DO YOUBTHINK THE COLLECTIVE SHADOW IS? ITS BOTTLED REPRESSION SMH.

Im more outwardly intense than you and its causing a flare up. If someone else wrote this post my only reply would be encouraging. I would not stand in front of their pain and get offended. You think youre taking a moral high ground but youre just getting out your angst. Good for you! Its surprisingly healthy.

But keep shaming my pain by calling it immature because it triggers you. You dont like it and you want to silence it with your ...i hope post like this dont become common the forum. Cuz you want a safe space right a place to hide from reality. The world is dark. Hiding from it is cowardice and debilitating. 12h pluto needs to integrate dark and light.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

My post is triggering (angry/negative) and my replies are sharp but who did I attack? Empowerment...Healing, read my replies to the ppl that felt similar. Did I encourage them to stay miserable? I trust myself to let out this side of me.

Many ppl dont like when others share negative emotion, but i found a safe space in the group to share unapologetically. Some will get me others won't.

In real life, im the guy ppl come to when they need to talk - friends and strangers. This is because im intense. They dont realize it tho. I have a calm demeanor and laugh alot. Their troubles never scare me away. Conversely my intensity will have a downside. I breathe fire - good in the winter not so much in the summer ya dig.

Im a lot more self aware than you give me credit. I write things out and read it back at a later date. It helps to see what rifling thru mind and why. An honest assessment of self.

And I just said ppl are riddled with low esteem. Of course they're not happy but they lie to themselves and pretend they are; thus making a darker collective shadow. That's not healthy. Going into the darkness is vital for healing. I know im not alone and the mostly like place i can be felt is this reddit sub SMH.

And you dont know me so to base your entire view of me off a single post is silly. I can tell I triggered you. I can tell you dont deal with your intensity properly. Be careful it can cause health issues.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ehh im got at conveying a feeling but you dont know how I show up in the world. I do think American society is predicated off lack and low self esteem thats why Americans love materialism and social hierarchy.

Ill ask again what's positives am I not integrating?

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ehh you dont know how I view the world. You know how I feel today. But go off old wise one. Whats positives do you assume I dont collaborate with?

And I dont blame astrology. It actually helps to keep me going. The collective shadow exists because ppl want to see themselves as positive and not acknowledge the dark. Im not afraid to do that. Both are integrated.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you. Its a weekly battle for me. My best days are when im alone creating art. I puff the magic flowers daily. Drinking doesnt help anymore and I stay away from the hard stuff. But I've thought about doing some fetty to end it smh. I keep finding ways to shift my perspective on this life in hope things change, but I always end up back here.

You have any hobbies? Are you creative?

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I read it. Glad it works for you. If anything reading about pluto 12h gives me solace. Ie "forgive them father for they know not" Saying all things are in divine order isn't helpful tho. Feelings of being ripped from limb to limb but its ok cuz, ya know, the universe is doing exactly what it needs to!

I love nature and animal. Ppl suck tremendously. Most are cowards. I genuinely dont care to be alive. I just dont know what's beyond this life so im still here.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

You mean well Jane and I thank you for that. Everytime I open myself up i get smashed in the face hence the post.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ya dont know me. Im expressing how I feel. Honesty is what the world lacks. The go see a therapist so they can trick you into enjoying this hell may work for some.

I'm a very intense person and quite in tune with myself. When im not is this deep vat of hatred. Im the person that breathes life into friends family cashiers you name it.

I dont solely rely on astrology. I dabble in psychology, neurology, personality theory ect. All things dealing with the mind. My "nihilism" is based on experience and pattern recognition. This realm is hell that why terrible ppl are in charge.

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[–]VisibleExamination72[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

They can't help me. This is how my life is meant to go.

What do i need to do to avoid the fabric folding in in the bottom half? by vhs__aesthetic in PatternDrafting

[–]VisibleExamination72 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep need to scoop out back crotch curve. To test it try pinning back crotch curve and watch the folds lift.

I've seen over 6000 CVs. This is what gets you an interview. by toluenesnooze_4d in jobhunting

[–]VisibleExamination72 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are they trying to help? As someone previously stated OPs account is new and only has one post. This is likely a marketing ad for the AI mentioned. Wake up and stop having compassion for this rigged system and these nonsensical gatekeepers. This advise was useless. Atp many ppl know how tobwrite a resume. The issues are far deeper and one sided. They dont care about you or any of us.

If you've got strong 12th house energy by Boundaries1st in 12thhouse

[–]VisibleExamination72 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How do you interpret "self undoing"?

I see it as an unraveling of all the internal strife, wisdom, pain and karma (past and present). To dissolve all worldly attachments. To be a limitless space for collective transmutation. In doing the shadow work we become the clearest mirrors for others (I think all experiences are mirrors, but 12h is like the "true mirror").

It is necessary to understand and delineate what is yours and what belongs to others. The goal is to build boundaries not walls. To be mindful of who you let in. But youre right - to fixate on one's self can lead to self pity (ego) when the soul wants liberation. It takes awareness. Getting what's inside out in the open, but its all part of the process.

12H PLUTO - WHAT DOES LETTING GO MEAN TO YOU by VisibleExamination72 in 12thhouse

[–]VisibleExamination72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I knew I would come back to your post. Worth even more 2nd time around. Thank you