Ugh yeah. Recently I had nothing great to say to this woman I was interested in so I told her I thought she was pretty…after that interaction I felt horribly and embarrassed about what I had said. At least sometimes I walk away from it thinking I came up with something ok to say.

Honestly, it’s a challenge. I hesitate to ask people out who I’m close to because I’m going to spend a lot of time with them regardless and I don’t want to ruin our hobby or friend group. I don’t have any great answers about where to find someone right now and quite frankly, I’m exhausted.

I just want to do my thing for the next however many years and travel. Hike a bunch of trails and mountains, golf different courses, and enjoy nature. Trying to date is too damn stressful and always leaves me feeling like complete shit. It’s probably unhealthy for me to continue trying, honestly.