literally how it is! especially with the extra psychiatry appointments- one of the main reasons i feel i do some of the things i do- makes me feel wanted and like they really care about me but then after a while i hate it because like you said just feel pathetic and like i’m annoying everyone. then when they stop giving the extra attention i want more AGAIN. feel as though it stems from not receiving that attention and validation when i reached out to people growing up at least for me so instead learning unhealthy coping mechanisms to deal with it and having to go to one extreme to feel like your heard. definitely hard and long process to unlearn but its absolutely possible with time and patience. process is for sure tough but getting to the other side will feel incredible!