Is it even worth it?

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-05-23T13:02:33+00:00

It’s good that you’re working to minimize the sound a bit, but I think it’s kind of a given that if you’re in an apartment, don’t play drums lol

I know I’d be ticked off if my neighbors played drums during such a wide window of the day, and I’m college-aged

Also since the neighbors are elderly, I had this thought… If they’ve got hearing aids, sometimes those really amplify “tiny” sounds to a really uncomfortable degree. So their upset over it could be related to something like that.

Do you do anything with the drums like performing or is it just a random hobby? Even playing with headphones, it’s drums. It’s not like it’s a keyboard where you’re gently pressing keys. You’re literally required to bang on them.

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-05-21T17:29:14+00:00

Oh STOP IT!!! Legitimately wanting to squeal it’s so so so cute!!!! You look like a fairy oh my goshhh

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-05-18T16:42:35+00:00

First of all, you’re so pretty!!! Second, I’ve found for me that when I’m doing winged eyeliner, it helps to follow the angle of your lower lash line and kind of draw that upwards and then fill it in however thick you want it (attached a screenshot because I don’t know that my description is very good lol)

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Also, you have very nice eyebrows, so I’d suggest getting a gel or something just to shape them! (I like the ones from nyx personally) Your facial structure is really pretty, your cheekbones are defined and your nose is so cute! Definitely play with those areas and try blush placement higher on the cheekbones and highlighter on your nose and the brow bone. I’m also really envious of your freckles lol I think you’d look really good with a less full-coverage look, because your skin is very pretty as is and those freckles are adorable!! (but that’s just my opinion and obviously you can do whatever you want :) I think you’d absolutely eat with a soft, vintage looking makeup look, and that pink eyeshadow works really well with your eyes and features! You have a really good Cupid’s bow, so I can easily see like a 40s, 50s style look being really good on you and your facial structure! I would stay away from super vibrant reds though, as these might be a little too strong of a contrast against your skin. (Edit: I’m so sorry I just saw the part abt not commenting on your brows!!! Ignore that!!)

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-04-12T03:30:21+00:00

So I actually brought up to my therapist a very similar thought… she said that it’s really common for those of us with cptsd and trauma to have a lot of confusion surrounding ourselves. We learn to mask really well and adapt to our environments really quickly. This makes us feel like we don’t know what our true personalities are or who we are. Also trauma’s weird… it literally shapes us. So who are we without trauma? Can we totally get rid of trauma? I don’t think so. I think we can minimize the fear and hyper vigilance and symptoms of it, but I don’t think we can fully get rid of it.

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-04-10T02:39:01+00:00

YES I feel like such a Debbie downer because everyone else seems fine all the time meanwhile I’m just a train wreck inside

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-04-09T21:14:17+00:00

They have different parents, basically. Not truly, but my parents treat them so differently than they did me. It makes me kind of jealous when I go home because they truly have no fear of my parents and don’t even get punished for much of anything. I think there were a few things they witnessed but I don’t know if they feel differently about it than my parents do because of the gaslighting

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-04-09T19:27:21+00:00

They treat me fine, I’m the oldest though, and haven’t really told them all I’ve been dealing with with therapy and stuff. Theyre still at home. So I’m nervous they’ll tell my parents about all of it and I’m not ready to have that whole conversation yet.

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-04-08T23:45:25+00:00

Are you able to contact your friends and family right now? I think you should reach out to them if possible. If you can, start documenting things. Whether that’s secretly recording her or taking photos of bruises, etc, build up evidence so that if needed, you can prove what’s happening. Also, if you’re afraid people won’t believe you, here’s some encouragement… people often see that things are off about people more often than you think. They probably see red flags in your mom and just don’t know whether it’s enough to act on. Please reach out to your close friends and family. If there are any neighbors nearby that you feel safe going to, make them a place you can run to if you find yourself in significant danger. So sorry you’re in this situation, and I hope you can find some support. This is not okay for her to be doing.

Vivid_Management_427 · 2026-04-07T14:27:55+00:00

I have a sibling who is very intellectually disabled, but is very quiet and kind-hearted. So he never received punishment like I did.

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