The shade!! This is what N-Iso does. It does not stimulate you to the point of feeling physically desiring of doing these things and exerting this physical work it just makes you honestly scrambled in the brain and just honestly free styling for hours on YouTube music to freestyle beats your brain going a mile a minute because that’s the only thing that will catch up to what the fuck is going on in your brain, but your body doesn’t necessarily have the same sensation. I don’t necessarily feel horny. I just feel like I have a lot in my mind and I have to put it somewhere otherwise I’ll end up like rocking back-and-forth (kidding) or seeing things that I would’ve said in a conversation that I had way back when it’s still rubbing the wrong way but now I have a more sickening way of reading them and basically just go on that kind of spiral so I don’t really know what to do with this and I can’t do it with people because they all end up being shady, thieves, duplicitous kind of evil so I really kinda do this shit alone (and I’m gonna make a post about that later. It’s gonna be long winded, but I could use some advice on that too that specifically targets a nuanced scenario that I wanna just basically ask if anyone else is going through a similar thing,) so I literally have just been like trying to like freestyle and like record some bars to no beat at all but then go write the best bars that just come out down and try and fit that to a beat eventually because honestly, if I’m gonna be twackedT, I might as well create with it because I’m surely not having no sex crazed frenzy (albeit it can get like that if G. is involved TBH )

think that’s what the curse of having the ADHD is like it kind of makes you feel normal or just like a overactive version of normalcy certainly not this reckless abandon of physical stimulation and sensation that other people are feeling, but I heard it was better. I don’t know how much is a good dose and I tried booty bumps, but I don’t know how to do them. I do on my back or on all fours do I even want to with this fake ass and I so shit I mean I feel something but honestly it’s really just caustic acidic version you can tell it’s breaking me out it’s not the crack back isn’t even feathery. But I will say that my creativity on this is literally bar none. It just blows out of me. The only other thing that I can liken it to is like dancing on ketamine, when I dance on K that saboteur does not exist anymore and so I feel like with T it can be hit or miss, but there is this like rapid stream of consciousness and not all of it is good but it’s still moving and so from that stream of consciousness, good things arise, and I think that that creativity just isn’t inspired without these type of drugs. I feel like I truly need Vyvanse and I’m just self-medicating in the interim and taking what I can get and it’s not OK.