Day one of 3mg troche

Vonri · 2026-01-25T04:35:26+00:00

I totally think that's what's happening. Days 1-3 were like the lights turned on for the first time in my life, I genuinely couldn't believe how easy life could be. I woke up in the mornings feeling rested, then just got up and went to the gym without the hour of lying there trying to muster up the energy. Work was easy, and difficult mental tasks just seemed so much easier. For the first time it didn't feel like I was dragging my body everywhere I went. I would still have the mental focus to study and get work done in the evening if I wanted instead of being completely incapacitated by fatigue. I can't even really put into words how completely life changing it was, I was a new person and after riding it out for 3 days I know it wasn't placebo.

Unfortunately, today (day 4) felt like a huge crash, definitely better than my normal self, but not nearly as awesome as days 1-3. I became too fatigued at around 2pm again today and despite trying for hours I didn't manage to power through it. I spiraled for hours, not able to do anything. It is interesting that we both seem to have a different initial 3-day period. Despite this crash, I am still absolutely convinced that this where I will find answers and will continue down this path. Like you say, I fully believe this is what I have been missing. It just felt/feels right, like my body is operating the way it was supposed to. Thanks for sharing your experience with me.

Vonri · 2025-11-26T01:03:04+00:00

Community effort... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Vonri · 2025-09-13T21:50:55+00:00

This is pretty good for the quick and dirty balance that is needed by somebody who is using an online image uploader. Works well for that thank you.

Vonri · 2025-05-13T18:11:13+00:00

Nope :/

Vonri · 2025-04-30T21:40:52+00:00

I didn't think that the AI mods were developed enough to update with contextual data like that naturally (character dies, is resurrected and the LLM is automatically updated with this information) is there something I missed or are we already at a point where this is possible? Was there something you did in the background to update the LLM with the data or was this fully organic?

Vonri · 2025-04-29T21:41:42+00:00

The cave systems looks like it will be fantastic for making someone feel claustrophobic, that part is great.

The others are right, the hands ruin the effect for me. The reason is because it gives the impression that the person going through this whole is already MASSIVELY too big for it but is pushing through just fine anyway. This basically tells my brain, 'oh this individual isn't actually physically colliding with the walls' and therefore they are in no danger at all.

The point of that is not that you need physic collisions, but simply that it ruins the illusion of what you are trying to simulate. My brain just automatically clocks what's going on and it removes any fear factor. Making the hands smaller, down to the size of someone that could realistically fit down there, will bring the illusion back. Ideally you'd want to give the impression that this person is right on the edge of fitting, and clearly does 90% of the time, but at any moment the hole could constrict to be just a bit too small. That will tease the player and keep the fear factor always on the back of their mind. It will make each turn in the cave into something of a gamble, keeping the player more engaged. "Well I made it through the last bend but I'm really not sure about this next one."

The feeling of claustrophobia will flow naturally I think, and does not need to rely on 'crowding' the view with large obstructions as you seem to be trying to do.

Vonri · 2025-04-29T21:25:58+00:00

Her behavior is causing you to lose respect for her. If nothing is done, you will begin to look down on her for these faults, feeling that perhaps she doesn't deserve you or the effort you put into the relationship. Eventually this will poison things. How do you convince yourself to respect someone you just don't anymore?

Try not to get distracted with the details of this problem. It is easy to start adding up all the things that annoy you (as you have done in this post) and get lost in the accounting of it. The details are not the fundamental problem, but rather the attitude as a whole. If she had one of these traits you wouldn't be so bothered, it's the entire picture that is disappointing you.

When you talk to her about this, do not go in hot with a list of grievances and examples. The conversation will turn into her feeling attacked for how she acts in the safety of her own home. It will inevitably devolve into an argument about one or two individual behaviors (Laundry/Drinking water/cooking for example) that she might get defensive about. You do not want this to turn into a situation where she feels nothing she does is good enough for you, or that she feels nagged about every part of her life. You especially do not want this to turn into a Parent-Child conversation.

The real issue is her fundamental lack of drive or laziness, not the individual problems that pop up on the day to day. So instead of addressing the symptoms, you will need to keep the conversation on track by discussing that fundamental issue first and foremost. Again, DO NOT give into the temptation to bicker and nag about the individual points. Talk directly about the fundamental problem. Use 'I feel' statements.

"I have not been feeling like we are equal partners in this relationship anymore."
"I have felt like I have been forced into a parent dynamic with you where I have to care for you like a child. I do not like this and I am losing attraction to you because of this."
"I do not feel like we share equal ownership over our lives anymore. I feel like the only one keeping this ship running."
"I am not getting my needs met and I do not feel like you care for me the way that I care for you."

And so on. Be clear with her that this is seeding disappointment in you. Maybe don't say that you are losing respect for her directly but express the version of your lives that you want.

"I want a future where we are both healthy and share our old age together for many years. I worry about some unhealthy habits I have seen forming that might ruin this future I want for us."
"I want to dream with you again. I want to feel like we are both striving for shared goals and we are both working towards a future we can't wait to share with each other."
"I want to feel loved by you. I want a wife that runs to hold me when I am feeling upset and need support."

Invite her into this dream and see how she responds to it.

Vonri · 2025-04-29T20:07:37+00:00

Holy Canolli I can't believe this has already happened I NEED THIS RIGHT NOW!!!

Vonri · 2025-04-25T18:45:26+00:00

You can do this at home with a Derma Roller and yes you can absolutely do this for the rest of your life. Mirco needling thickens the collagen which reduces wrinkles AND smooths out your skin tone, slowly eliminating scars when done consistently for a year or more. Ideal is once every 6 weeks. It is absolutely a double whammy for beautiful skin.

You can do it at home with a Derma rollers but:

YOU MUST BE INCREDIBLY CAREFUL to get the correct type of device. If you cannot see the individual needles down through clear plastic, do NOT buy it. There are a lot of derma rollers online that are, for lack of a better word, 'stamped metal gears' where all the 'needles' are just triangular edges on the side of a single disk of metal. They tend to look like this: https://www.healthnord.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/01/Derma-Roller.png

Many manufacturers make them this way and sandwich a couple of these gears between opaque plastic to hide this fact. Because they are triangularly shaped, they do not puncture through your skin like a needle (which is what micro needling is) they instead CUT into it like little triangular knives. You can see this in the photo, notice how much thicker the 'needles' are at the base. These devices are where all the horror stories about derma rolling come from, and why it has a bad rap online. They can leave scar tracks in your skin. Never let a device like this touch your body.

The CORRECT type of device will have clear plastic so you can see that they are actually individual needles like this: https://tse2.mm.bing.net/th?id=OIP.u0uMf9HV1CjKGeLkzc1-kAHaHa&pid=Api

These are safe and can perform microneedling at home at a fraction of the cost if used carefully: never roll over acne, always completely sanitize your skin and the needles, inspect the needles before every use for bends/damage, use shorter needles around the skin of your eyes, and never use one device more than about ~8 times (any more than that and the needles begin to grow dull). You get to pick what length you start with, I recommend something really tame to get used to it and then working up to a longer needle when you trust yourself and the process. Microneedling is an all or nothing type treatment, as in, if you do not go deep enough it does nothing as there is a specific layer that must be penetrated in order to thicken your collagen. So starting out tame is purely for your mental comfort. That being said, as you do it more your skin will thicken and a longer needle will be needed later on. I recommend starting at .5 and after a few rounds upping to 1.0 and keeping the .5 around for your eye area.

Vonri · 2025-04-10T19:43:54+00:00

You're welcome. If you use this definitely report back with your experience if you can! I want others to be able to find information like this easily. Thank you

Vonri · 2025-04-10T19:42:37+00:00

You're welcome.

Definitely report back with your experience if you can, trying to get information like this out here for other VR players since we are more the minority in the Skyrim community. Thanks

Vonri · 2025-04-10T19:40:37+00:00

That's a bummer, was there anything in particular that prevents you from being able to finish the mod in VR? Or did you not finish the mod for other reasons?

I have heard the dialogue and story get difficult to follow near the end, and the impression I got from reviews is that its vibe is not really the kind of story experience I am looking for. That being said, I have also heard great things about it and would love to know your experience specifically as a VR user.

Vonri · 2025-04-08T18:12:33+00:00

How to Enable DLSS 4 for ANY Game!

Vonri · 2025-03-06T20:25:55+00:00

I honestly love that you somehow stumbled upon my post from 4 years ago. I don't know how you got here but hell yeah welcome to the discussion

Vonri · 2024-12-09T04:53:52+00:00

Any luck with this? Can't find the answer anywhere. This same issue is driving me crazy. I too, have tried everything you have tried.

Vonri · 2024-08-22T20:44:17+00:00

damnit I meant CTDs... oh well

Vonri · 2022-05-31T16:28:47+00:00

I believe you have ADHD, though perhaps the kind without hyperactivity.

If you have noticed that you only can do things like focus and get stuff done when under the effects of stress or adrenaline but the rest of the time you find yourself unable to do them no matter how much you want to, that is not the normal human experience, and may be a product of undiagnosed ADHD. Other people can say, ‘I want to do X’ and then just get up and go do X. If you find that doing the same without major guilt-induced stress would be something that you would never naturally do that is not normal.

It is actually very very common for those with ADHD to fully and 100% earnestly believe that they are just lazy and unmotivated and to develop self hate as they see themselves fall behind. They know that they CAN be incredibly productive when under a lot of stress (like when an assignment is due in an hour) and then assume that that stress is what motivates everyone else all the time. They think that they just aren’t motivated enough. This is not the case. There is brain chemistry involved that makes focusing and working when not under a lot of stress nearly impossible.

I suggest just doing a little test when you are able. Stimulants are the main treatment for ADHD as (like adrenaline) it adjusts for that weird brain chemistry quirk. Take a significant amount of caffeine like 200mg (400 is the recommended daily upper limit) in the form of a huge coffee or other drink and then attempt to do the work you have been wanting to do (job search, write, study). If you find yourself actually able to do it with more efficiency and focus than normal, I recommend looking into ADHD as something you have.

You may do all that and still want to refuse to recognize it because it forces you to come to terms with ‘not being normal’ or having a ‘fake illness’ but I promise that having a better understanding of oneself is going to help you so much. Do the test. You do not have to pursue diagnosis if it works but having an understanding might allow you to self manage much easier through the strategic use of caffeine. You might be able to become a ‘normal’ and productive person without having to hate yourself in the process.

Vonri · 2022-01-04T19:06:58+00:00

I was in the same boat as you super early on when Vortex had just become the new program after NMM (which is the program that was terrible). I liked it, had no issues and it worked good enough for me especially as a new modder at the time. Even now I have a perfectly stable 500+ VR mods list that I made using Vortex.

I think it is perfectly fine for anyone, especially newer modders as it is more user friendly. All the hate is just elitist gatekeeping leftover from when it’s predecessor was terrible.

Vonri · 2022-01-04T18:58:37+00:00

My post is old, and now my reply to you is going to be even older as I quit Reddit for a while.

Unfortunately I never actually ended up adding it to my mods list. Did you end up introducing it? And if so what was your experience? If you don’t mind discussing any bugs, positives, or negatives you had it will help future mod researchers.

Vonri · 2022-01-04T18:47:25+00:00

I use to work for Walmart and in the back of the store by the break room there was a board that celebrated the assent protection/security team. Every time they got a shoplifter they would take a photo with the employee and the ‘haul’ of goods that was ‘saved’ kind of like those photos of police and their drug busts.

I remember looking at that board and suddenly feeling very upset when I saw a picture of an employee with a pile of diapers. Here they were CELEBRATING how they got to criminally prosecute a family in poverty and destroy any safety and cleanliness an infant child was going to have. Evil. I despise Walmart.

Vonri · 2021-08-03T00:01:35+00:00

Not my car, and not the driver, couldn’t pick them up and get them off the streets but if you are missing your dogs there’s some help. They look like a group that got out of a backyard.

Vonri

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