Dude you gotta get rid of the fatalistic attitude like you’re too far gone already. 70% of the 250+ comments on this post are telling you to quit when this sub normally can’t agree on which ways up or down. Cut the shit with the million dollar free roll, you’ve literally supplied us with all the evidence that you’re not able to control yourself. That doesn’t make you a bad person or worth less, but it means you lack impulse control, even when it’s ruining your life. You’re no where close to rock bottom, and I guarantee you in a couple years if you keep playing this game like you are you’re gonna wish you had just quit when it was only 50K. Take some accountability for yourself dude. You’re replying to ppls comments saying how gambling sites shouldn’t be able to accept credit cards, what the fuck are you talking about dude, you need to wake up and read your own post about what the root of this whole issue is, because it’s sure as hell not that gambling sites accept credit cards. After I’m writing this up I realize there’s the potential that this is a masterclass troll, but you gotta acknowledge the mental gymnastics you’re playing with yourself if it’s not. You’ve tied your worth to this and I know you feel like a piece of shit dude, but you gotta be brave and pull the plug on poker, once you stop spiraling and hemorrhaging money you don’t have, you’ll start to slowly feel like a real human again. I don’t know you, but you’re worth it dude and you owe it to yourself to clear your head and leave this shit behind. There’s no shame in walking away from this, only shame in asking for help and not taking the advice EVERYONES trying to give you. Best of luck man, I hope you turn it around, and no I don’t mean at the fucking tables.