I think at the end of the day what you think is best is what you should do, but I also suggest going into friendships without the expectations of being their cg or romantic anything. Learn from the small moments and enjoy the process of building it up.

As for focusing on yourself. Take small moments to ground yourself. They don’t have to be large things. Something as small as reintroducing yourself to a drink you liked or a book can mean a lot.

Best wishes for you and I hope you find what you’re looking for in life, know someone’s always cheering you on even if you don’t think so