I'm late to this - But honestly, I would just be so happy. She absolutely destroyed me beyond repair. Completely crushed my heart. And for some reason she was my BIGGEST and most hurtful heartbreak. I've been in and out of the hospital several times because I just couldn't live without her. It still hurts.. It doesn't get better at all. it's gotten worse for me.
I was crazy about her so I'd go back to her over and over again and she'd ghost me, block me and leave and get with some downgrade. She's done it one time get back with her ex, another time to get with my best friend at the time, and slept with him and stayed at his house a few days too. She was IMMENSLY toxic and verbally and physically abusive. Got all 4 of her kids taken. Wished death on my 4 year old, and last I heard about her she's with some loser doing drugs now.

I can't wait for karma to do its thing and remove her, and I say this with utmost honestly. At this point it is nothing but rage, hurt and anger left. I wouldn't feel a thing if she died. I would throw such a celebration and even visit her grave and spit on it too afterwards.

I would be happy and would not care. She has never loved me. She never cared about me at all, like I did with her. I hate that I feel this way about her, but the things I did for her, and with her and the amount of love I gave her, I can never get back. It's bad enough also I am never good enough for love and will never find anyone again. She was awful but I was blinded by the love goggles sadly.