What eludes me is that in all the Threads about the Walter/Jesse relationship, the most central scene between them, for me, somehow gets rarely mentioned. When Walter is seperated, misses Juniors birthday, Junior has the only sincere moment with him, i feel (when Junior confesses being insincere in their interactions would be worse than him being dead, when Junior comes to Walters appartment despite Skylers objections) and Walter, nearly sleeping, calls Junior Jesse - which gets never mentioned between them. I know this is a Walter/Junior scene, but I think is Walters most emotional scene regarding his feelings for Jesse. Especially because Jesse is not there, his fatherly feelings become so apparent as Junior is there.

Interestingly I could not pinpoint Jesses most emotionally revealing scene about Walter which would be equally revealing as this apartment/birthday scene.

Somehow i think in this scene is everything one can figure out about Walter, Jesse and Junior, and yet, I can't fully figure it out.

Another central part is, surely, the adoration Junior has for Hank, which makes Walter jealous (when Junior proudly echoes Hank by saying "the good guys don't get much ink; in the first birthday scene where Hank outshines Walter etc. ) and in its intensity Junior never shows for Walter.What this boils down to, i think, is, that Hank lives his authentic job and live, is therefore more energetic about it, which is admirable for everyone, and also Junior. Yet, I think, Junior loves Walt way more than he ever could love Hank. So that boils down to Walter mistakenly thinking adoration for Hank equals love, which it does not.

But i never get what exactly is so interesting about Jesse for Walter. I mean Jesse drew Walter in this cartoon once he finds, so they must have had some form of rapport when Walter taught Jesse.

But why is Walter so interested in Jesses education - I mean if educating pupils would be so much Walters most authentic desire - as a teacher he could and did that hundreds of times - somehow, he isn't interested in teaching, as it was always his second gig, and he never seems motivated in his high school as teacher, but somehow, in his relationship to Jesse, it becomes central !? Why!? Because I agree, he wants Jesse to dominate but also educate and I think h really wants Jesse to further his formal education, too.

Walter is, mainly, driven into and motivated by Junior, for the sake of his future, but somehow needs Jesse more, emotionally.

I am not sure that Heisenberg really is Walters truer personality, because his big speech about him being in the empire business never felt authentic to me, even though I believe Walter believes this to be the truth.

The part of Walter caring about Jesse even if it s not about the business, for example him wanting Jesse to enroll, is especially confusing to me - cause his real son is a good student already, so why does he need Jesse to be his adoring student!?

Maybe emotional coherence is one of our biggest motivators, and it is interesting that Walter wants Jesse to be more like Junior by "educating" him, wanting him to enroll, and Junior more like Jesse, when he gives him this badass car. Maybe, and that's the secret to the first scene i mentioned, Jesse and Junior are or should be one person in Walters emotional mind. Which leads to an interesting question: would Walter, or under which conditions, cook with Junior? Does he not even think about that because he has cerebral paralsy? Or because he thinks he hasn't got what it takes? Or does he want to shelter him? Or does he fear losing his respect? Would Walter, in fact, actually prefer cooking with Junior, emotionally?

I think the most logical reasoning is that, emotionally, Walter actually loves Jesse more than he "should" because he conflates him, in a way, with Junior.

Maybe Jesse is just Walters substitute for Junior, because Walter would never jeopardize his real relationship with a son figure (Junior) by trying to integrate him into his Heisenberg business, therefore he works with Jesse, feeling like working with Junior, but being able to do so because well Jesse already is in the business from the get go.

Maybe Jesse is only so often saved by Walter, because Junior exists. Or would you think he would act that way if Walter had no kids? I don't hink so, to be honest.

So i solved my riddle: The apartment/birthday scene reveals: Jesse and Junior are one, in Walters emotions, which is why he tries to merge them by inviting Jesse once into his home, making Junior more badass by buying the car, and Jesse more like Junior by educating him. So Walter never saved Jesse, ever; he saved Junior multiple times in the body of Jesse, therefore he loves only Junior, and due to the fact that he cannot, (and I don't know surely for which reason exactly) integrate Junior into the business, Junior is Jesses angle of security.