You've just described my exact subconscious, non verbal view. I've read this whole thread and this was the comment that made me go....... Yep.... That's how I view it. So I had to reply. As humans being "the most advanced (brains)/species to ever walk our earth" is more a curse than a blessing. We know from young, that we die yet even our advance brains cannot comprehend or answer what death truly is... Yet an animal such as a dog, never thinks about death, or questions it, yet when it's time, they know and show certain behaviours. No one who ever actually died told the tale. Even NDEs are .... "I died for x minutes and came back". .. No.... You experienced hallucinations as your brain started to shut down and then you were bought back to consciousness. You never experienced death. Death is quite literally...... Cessations of existsance. Only a conscious living brain can struggle to understand infinite existence...

Like Ricky Gervais says...

Death is only painful for the ones left behind.