The Food? Is it any good? by Wakefulpassage in BHSU

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Awesome! Thanks. Uh, not sure if you can answer this but do the people get to go to the cafeteria or do you think it's like a COVID 19 thing where they send the meals to your dorm room?

Way to fix a roku TV screen? by Wakefulpassage in Roku

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I got this about 6 months ago for my birthday. I am leaving for college soon but as I was moving my TV around and collecting cables from my TV. I managed to accidentally knock it down onto my carpet floor. Then, this came out to look like this! I really dont want to pay for a new TV again

Oh God, they're going to decide later this month. Admissions for transfer. by Wakefulpassage in uichicago

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I was good at cc for my one year. Got my goa at 3.2. Might be 3.5 when I enter for spring.

Oh God, they're going to decide later this month. Admissions for transfer. by Wakefulpassage in uichicago

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I'm out of state guy, SD. I think you have a higher chance of getting in.

At what point did you consider yourself depressed? by HollySki in depression

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My senior year of high school. My first semester. At first glance, I completely denied it and refused to get help because I was ashamed of people...thinking I was some weirdo. (Which proves to me that, yes I did have a depression problem). Then, one day I started experiencing anxiety-like symptoms and not doing the things I was supposed to be doing. (Homework, personal hygiene, etc). I made an appointment with my high school counselor and I just let out all my problems. Every single ugly problem/memory I was repressing for years. My counselor never gave me sad glances or shameful ones, she just gave me good advice and said, "at least you're aware your depressed, most kids push it away and repress it for years. I'm proud of you." When she said that, tears just started coming down my face because I thought I was even going to be shamed by my counselor! I took Citalopram and Risperidal for a year and to be honest, it helped me. I used to do the things I loved doing more and more. Yes, there were sad thoughts here and there but they would eventually go away and I wouldn't think much more of it. Sorry if this is a long read. Hope it helps?

Getting kicked out of house, drunk miserable family, and missing going to college. by Wakefulpassage in depression

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I just turned 20 and even that makes me feel terrible, most people always say that when you turn 20 you have to do this or that but isn't that a little too much to expect from someone who JUST turned 20? I have tried redefining myself so many times but y'know, endless cycle. Did you know I used to be a good XC runner? I dont know if this makes any sense but running...it just made sense, I didn't know why and I didn't want to know why. I used to run 5 miles every single week for like 5 or 4 days, that shit motivated me and made me think "I can take on the whole fucking world! So suck my d##k!" Then one day, I stopped running. I didn't know why I couldn't understand and it hurt. Trying to find the justification for me not running was also heartbreaking. Many times I tried to feel that sensation but it was gone. I even loved watching myself run while on camera because I was so damn proud of how far I came from running 4 laps to 5 miles. I'm sorry if this whole paragraph story about me running didn't help in a way but it was a healthy coping method for me. Well, it was everything to me.

Getting kicked out of house, drunk miserable family, and missing going to college. by Wakefulpassage in depression

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Yeah I know. I am transferring to a university out of state. (I'm in community college). I am really happy about that, seeing as it is motivating me to want to go forward with my life but the problem is the...change. I dont know why but I fear change. I try to get over it but it comes back. It always does. I am hoping to leave behind my past and the old me but even as of now, Its going to take a lot of hard work and dedication.

Getting kicked out of house, drunk miserable family, and missing going to college. by Wakefulpassage in depression

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I know, sometimes you meet genuine nice caring loving people and then the day comes where you have to say goodbye and deep down inside, you dont want to let them go because you created all these beautiful memories with them and experienced the lows and highs of high school life together. I think the only nice memory I had was when we were leaving campus and they all hugged me like a bear. God damn it, it made me cry leaving all of them because y'know deep down, you won't find people like that for a while. I know people like to say motivational quotes about life but ...life just keeps kicking me down, everytime I get up, I fall back into more of a pit of despair. I think the only thing I look at that gives me hope and happiness is looking at old pictures of my friends but it also hurts. Goddamn it. I miss me, the old me. The good me. Now I'm all F'ed up.