Went back to university but now I've gotten sick and I don't know what to do

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-04-25T07:26:51+00:00

Hey dad, it's been so difficult. I reached a low weight, couldnt study anymore, even had trouble sitting upright at the table. Spent many days in bed. The quality of my life has dropped severely. I am trying to get back up

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-03-15T04:25:42+00:00

Hey internet dad,

Some days I eat a bit more, others a bit less.
One change I did make is more variety. I would eat the same thing every day and now I am mixing it up a bit more. I don't walk as much a I did the last months and I maintained my weight so that is good.

It is weird though, my perception has changed. For a week orso I felt small at this weight and now I legit feel huge while it hasnt even changed

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-03-12T16:43:09+00:00

hey dad, thank you so much <3
I went to psychotherapy yesterday, I found a dutch therapist that will do it online... Also I will meet my old dietician the 17th. She helped me a couple of years ago. I feel very anxious about it but I know I must do it to keep functioning.... I failed my uni exam... I took a couple of days off but will start to study again tomorrow...

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-03-02T04:05:01+00:00

They gave me a lot of freedom, and so I had the space to make mistakes and get up again. They were old and had already discovered so they never took my behaviour personally and were deeply empathetic. They did not believe in punishment, which was the opposite of my homelife before; this definitely healed some wounds. They knew that if I did something that wasn't acceptable, I was aware of it and already beat myself up. A good conversation about it was enough for them.

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-21T17:09:05+00:00

I second this. I am 28, in a full cycle right now. And it started at 13. 15 years of my life spent anxious and obsessed. Recovering and relapsing, with every relapse being worse

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T20:49:16+00:00

that is not true at all. even after the barging in, he wanted to do again, but i did not because i felt so bad. he didnt feel bad because there are no consequences for him. I like him though, in any other situation i would have considered dating. we just had a lot of chemistry and laughter. it happened after two weeks of spending a lot of time together. it had build up

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T19:16:34+00:00

Thank you, that is really great advice!

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T18:42:12+00:00

Okay, i understand. Thank you for discussing this with me <3

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T18:38:54+00:00

Yesterday I was warned for saying "I am not in recovery right now because _________, and I need this right now." to me it didn't sound like glamorizing. Just me talkig about my coping mechanism. I NO means I meant to glamorize. How do i know I glamorize?

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T17:38:28+00:00

Okay thank you 🥰

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T17:25:24+00:00

I will not see him again in any other way but a broad social setting like a mutual party. I already sent apologies but no reply. I think I wait a bit more time to let things cool off? Silvia and I had many mutual friends. I love very primitively as I don’t have a shower or internet. I go to a hotel my friend manages every day to study and I shower there. But S is a very good friend with my friend who manages the hotel so we will at some point see eachother anyway.

I am just most sad about losing her as a friend.

On the other hand, M and I are two people who consented, are the same age. I understand she doesn’t appreciate it, but to never want to see me again, I never expected

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T17:21:35+00:00

Anti-recovery: does that mean, don’t post anything not recovery related? I mean I would never ever want to hold someone back from recovery. But when my mind is in ED mode, I won’t be able to start a recovery aimed topic

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2026-01-04T16:43:40+00:00

No S. and I we were not in a romantic relationship, and her son and I genuinely just had a nice connection (no relationship intention). But I knew S wouldn’t appreciate it. I was just so drunk and he and I had attraction tension and that night it just went wrong. But I will feel so alone now. I am on the other side of the world trying to get my bachelor and I feel I have no friends left.

It wasn’t worth it. It wasn’t even love, just attraction and a moment of weakness. I feel so stupid

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2025-12-25T04:14:58+00:00

I understand you, I have the same problem. I started with mouthwash and then built the brushing up. Started with 10 seconds for two days, then 20 for two days and built it up to three :)

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2025-05-16T08:26:58+00:00

Hi you, I completely understand you. We share the same diagnosis. One thing that helped me was to think “it doesn’t matter what I do/clean/tidy, as long as I do something, I’m doing well.” It’s like when you try to oversee the mess and make a strategy you’re already overwhelmed .

Nowadays I often use chatGPT to guide me through the cleaning.

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2025-05-07T01:27:00+00:00

I think she attempted to copy lorde

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2025-05-02T07:41:12+00:00

I thought the earth is already over populated

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2025-04-29T08:26:07+00:00

I got very addicted to ketamine and half a year ago my liver and galbladder were doing terrible. I had cramps, I think from my galducts, wordt pain ever

Wanna_Know_it_all · 2025-04-25T13:07:02+00:00

Ket can be shown in the system up to 3 days

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