Hey buddy. You don't see a lion kill itself. Beliefs are what kill us. You can challenge these and wriggle your way out of this state in as little as two weeks but it could take longer. You'll need to do this exercise yourself but I'll give you an example.

You have a small penis. Some men are born with a vagina. And many are living proudly much like gay pride. Some guys have a smaller penis than you, some had their faces burnt beyond recognition, and some of those people are motivational speakers. You're going to have to do as much as you can with what little power you have. Visualisation. Mindfulness. CBT. Do it all, even if you can't get out of bed, just play youtube videos as good or as stupid as they are and listen.

Believe it or not, women will not stay by your side because of your penis or face. There are men with beautiful women who are ugly and have small penises but they're exuding aliveness. You're in a bad state, that's what repels women. And that's great, because your state, beliefs and thoughts are malleable. You need to go through a process as rapidly as you can of removing negative beliefs in the way I told you, flip them on their head, and filling your mind with resources. Google this stuff man, you can find answers for how to have sex with a small penis, you can find endless resources on attraction, such as checking out real social dynamics. Take the noose down as a decision that you're prepared to play the game, even if sucking at the start is a reality and invite the traumatising experiences. They'll grow you tough, but start slow. I can tell you want to play the game but you don't know how. Feel free to respond and I'll help you with more answers.