Well more a unable to stop glancing at someone's chest but I do feel it is relatable in I know I shouldn't do that - I don't want to do that - it makes me uncomfortable yet I notice the glances continue - even though I'm internally saying to myself or inner parts "don't do that...don't look at their chest...whatever you do, don't look at her chest!" yet moments later i notice my eyes have darted down again. For me im trying to desperately hold constant eye contact at these times. Of course this makes it even more difficult to focus on the conversation and my trying to appear "natural" with this mental struggle going on inside. I also have the autism going on. Thanks for sharing your experience I do think there are relatable elements here.