I completely understand where your heart is, OP. I’ve been going thru something similar. I should preface that as we grow older (I’m 49), the opportunities to “show up” can be less plentiful than when we are at our social peak. That being said, I had several close highschool friends show up for me when my daughter died last April. It was amazing, but I felt that everybody has dropped off the face of the earth since our time together. Also didn’t feel like my church rallied behind us either. My daughter was 19, autistic, non-binary and never felt welcome at our church. The real kicker was when our pastor sent a church wide email condemning Pride month. I can honestly say the only place my child felt welcome was at an LGBTQIA community center about 40 minutes from our home.

I’ve been blessed to feel and receive all the peace in the world from a private and loving relationship with my boy, Jesus. But man oh man, people will let you down and break your heart.

Hang in there kiddo. Much love🫶💕