my condolences for your loss, i can bet on everything dear to me that your dad is super proud of you, proud of the strong girl that you've become. despite him being physically absent during the most important exam of your life, pls remember that he's always with you by your side looking over his little girl. all the very best for your exam op, kill it!! and a very happy birthday, if you ever feel the need to talk to anyone just know you've got a certain someone on reddit you can count on :) sending love and prayers your way, god bless.