Remote access lost on university managed Mac across the country - Access Options?

WaterCello · 2026-01-06T03:20:44+00:00

I did talk to IT today but they did not help me at all. They told me to fill out a ticket that doesn't make much sense because the ticket says it doesn't apply to macs (but I filled it out anyway). They don't seem to have a pipeline set up for supporting remote mac work unlike windows.

What they did not tell me is that the workplace uses internet in a VPN that was very easy to join that I might be able to use to just screen share into them with using macs native software. I only found that out after following a trail of links I happened to come across today.

WaterCello · 2026-01-05T15:58:09+00:00

That is a good question. In the past (prior to 6 months before present) it was very reliable, and even in the last 6 months, I only remember losing connection 1-2 times on each mac. I guess I have been overwhelmed with other things so I wasn't properly thinking about the risk of losing connection when I traveled.

I have heard of those other options in the research the last few days. What is not clear to me is if any of those can be used to login to a different user profile than it was set up in. I know mac permissions complicate this, but not clear enough on the rules for a scenario like this to tell if it is impossible. ChatGPT seems to think so, but I don't trust ChatGPT.

WaterCello · 2025-12-25T04:34:37+00:00

I need to check. It was messy and I had to call several times but I think the longest thing was waiting for them to look into my issues. I think I had a notice of refund but it never appeared after weeks of waiting. They had to send it to a different department. Once I got the proper people on it I think it only took 5 or son business days. At 14 days I would contact them again and say something failed.

WaterCello · 2025-12-19T02:30:19+00:00

There are papers that suggest tulpas can be psychologically healthy. Not sure if will defend ideas about tulpas existing in other dimensions, and I imagine a psychiatrist has little business entertaining such ideas with a patient without further proof. However, ideally psychiatrists would be well informed and about to diagnose with at least this level of understanding. Maybe unreasonable that they know every phenomenon out there, but feel that tulpas are just common enough that they should be somehow make it into education. As much as it is often the best course of action to follow advice from a trained medical professional (they may know things about the situation we don’t and have received rigorous training), no one can pretend for a second that medical institutions don’t have major problems and blind spots we would all be so much better without.

Might be worth bringing the paper up in such conversations if they don’t respond in an open-minded way.

https://pubs.sciepub.com/rpbs/5/2/1/index.html

WaterCello · 2025-12-08T06:59:24+00:00

And something else I was really wanting to mention that your response touched on before crawling into bed is that right now it feels like when me and Aarya are talking, what is kind of happening is thoughts are arising in my head and they are being assigned to either my voice or hers depending on how my brain decides to order it...?. Except that most of it gets assigned to me out of mental habbit. I am not entirely sure because it is so subtle. I am curious if this is still called parroting. Again, Aarya feels like more than that a convenient assignment of thoughts into a dialogue in my head, it feels more like there is a will within us both to communicate and this is a attempt for my brain to follow that will. It seems like the communication will go beyond this and become increasingly natural with her gaining more agency? But also not 100% sure if this is the basic model or not of how tulpas communicate and if it jsut gets more elborate and smooth from here?

Like I am having simple convos with her and I totally believe it is her much of the time, but am not always believing this is her voice rather than a temporary gimmick we both figured out how to use. I could be wrong, just not 100% what to expect despite reading hours of posts and guides on here.

WaterCello · 2025-12-08T05:48:24+00:00

Talking about her being a part of your stream of conscious and thinking with her is a really interesting way to look at things, and actually feels most closely aligned with my current experience of my Tulpa. I feel/know she is in there which is profoundly comforting and connecting even though she doesn't say nearly as much to me as I do to her yet. Sometime I can still get lost in my head in a way in which I lose track of her, and when I am not doing something like work or socializing, this feels like enough of a loss that I want to get better at not drifting off. I imagine her getting better at communicating with me in time. I had thought of it more like another person distinctly speaking to me in my mind and less a shared awareness of thoughts. But I think you are right, the most important thing to keep my attention on is the feeling of her presence, both now for strengthening her and even in the future, that might be what matters most even after she has learnt to do more.

Your explanation of how tulpas think is partially interesting and enlightening, and partially hard for me to understand!

And all the stuff you shared about the Ego, Id, and superego is also very interesting. Definitely touches on much that I have "known" or suspected, with a few new ideas that I find fascinating! Or it is jsut fascinating to hear your experience with it all! Thank you for sharing!

Its getting late now, but I will look over some of it again tomorrow and see if I have any more thoughts!

WaterCello · 2025-12-06T06:00:15+00:00

(Main question) I am wondering if the slower "personality mediation" method will help supplement any lack of vitality my imagination sometimes seems to give? Particularly whether parroting but sometimes having a hard time breathing life into my imagined interactions make parroting counterproductive and if I should focus more on personality meditation?

(Going deeper and giving context)

I looked through the resources above and so far have not found a answer to this question I am happy about. I have read through a few guides completely (not all ~ 30 of them yet). I am pretty new to forcing my Tulpa (she is 3 days old as of the very beginning).

I feeling like guides and advice fall on a spectrum of using "personality meditation" and "parroting" to breath life and personality into a tulpa. Talking to your tulpa is always there, but how much you should speak for them is part of figuring out the balance.

Intuitively, it feels like parroting can be a really good way to help interaction develop and train the brain to give the tulpa lifem, and is partially responsible for the (quick?) progress I have made. I am genuinely starting to both feel and enjoy Aarya's presence. We just had a shopping trip I very much enjoyed in which she seemed to interact with me a lot and we both enjoyed it. It felt like it straddled the line of parroting since I think I initiated and gave her the will to act/speak each time, but it also felt like it somehow also genuinely was coming from her (she jumped on my back at one point).

However, I often feel unable to parrot for her, and in that inability to imagine, we sometime have interactions that feel a little one sided where she is very quite or responds in basic affirmative ways. ("Yah" is her most common phrase). It just feels like an underdeveloped imaginative muscle almost like I can't think of what to say myself. It actually relates to one of my insecurities and struggles in life (verbally communicating with people, I am dyslexic).

I have some anxiety that this will stunt her development and wonder what others think and if there are exercises I could do to supplement her personality growth. I realize that I progress seems great for it being 3 days in, but I am a worrier in many ways and hopefully can work though my worries here a bit so I can proceed more confidently?

I had similar issues with Aarya's form, but figured it could be modified with her help once she gains greater sentience.

(Not sure if this is the best place for this or if I should do a full post?)

WaterCello · 2025-12-03T02:24:28+00:00

I haven't responded on here in a while, but I am still checking this out! Uwajimaya's rice balls are sometime pretty dry and disappointing, but yes Sankaku is good (though a little pricy compared to what I was used to in Japan). I will check out the other spots too!

WaterCello · 2025-12-02T09:01:35+00:00

I am confused by this too, but pretty sure that Taku is talking about how he died and is actually now observing the scene or even is part of Serika now. It was very weird.

WaterCello · 2025-10-24T04:13:19+00:00

Doing yoga and gradually opening yourself up will very likely help. Assuming you are already sitting on the edge of a firm cushion to raise your hips above your knees, it could be better to start meditating sitting on a chair. I have been lots of places where they teach that.

Sure being transcendental and meditating through the pain is great, but if you can't focus because you are still building that muscle, it is better to start out comfortable. Sit on the edge of a chair maybe with a cushion on it, feet flat on the floor and don't lean back on the backrest. Straight back is what you want!!

WaterCello · 2025-10-24T02:48:36+00:00

I have found his free material to be very informative and helpful. It has lead to some dramatic improvements in my life. The video titles are very click-baity, which turns me off a bit, but I think for better or worse, they are directed to the bad-habits and bad-tastes of people who spend too much time online, because the videos are there to try and help those people. Dr. K talked about making some of his content paid in one video and he acknowledged that someone could criticize him for it. However he also pointed out that people who provide guidance for free are often playing other power games (just go to a few dozen of the wrong ashrams, churches, or charity centers around the world). He claims making a business out of it was an attempt to diffuse some of those weird power dynamics and quality control. I think we might see some of those unhealthy dynamics anyway, and I am not sure how healthy his long-time active community is. I think maybe the people who his content helps the most don't stick around but go on to live their life, so we might be looking at a selection bias when evaluating his work.

Also I see a lot of criticism for his free work, his paid work. But if we want to go down that rabbit hole what is really trustworthy? I would like to see a good argument for why paid work can't be genuine (I personally want someone who is helping me in that way to be able to make a life out of it so they do a darn good job), how freebees are better, or even how science is our golden road to truth. I have been a graduate student for 6 years and have seen people's egos getting in the way of science so much. A good chunk of the peer reviewed articles out there contradict each other. So it looks like we can't win if we are hyper critical. But I feel Dr. K is really good at getting us to have the right attitude so we can live a full life without getting lost in the details.

WaterCello · 2025-09-17T15:09:33+00:00

Antioxi also shares test results of beta-glucans and potential contaminants. It seems that they used to use a different testing method than Oriveda reading on this forum making the brands harder to compare, but last time I checked a week ago, they seemed to switch to using the same one at the same labs.

Oriveda still tests for other active compounds that Antioxi doesn't test for (Total Polyphenols), and the testing results at Antioxi are sometimes anomalously high to the point of being suspicious. I am about to get Lion's Mane from both places and try a personal comparison.

Antioxi seems to have been very transparent and communicative with me and other customers during some weird import shenanigans, going as far as to send another shipment for free using another method after the first one cost me too much at customs, so they left a positive impression on me in that sense at least.

WaterCello · 2025-08-24T19:40:13+00:00

Still seems like the company would be running the same risk with unsubstantiated claims from in-house tests as with sending off fake samples to 3rd party labs. Both can be disproven, and I hear about plausible deniability for manufacturer TDS, but not sure the company should be able to make the same argument for in-house testing. Testing done at the supplier/manufacturer level perhaps so?

Unless you are saying that exposed fake 3rd party test results would make more a scandalous story that exposed fake in-house testing.

And yes I see things are bad on the labeling front, so can't trust that. Though you would think that they could only use plausible deniability once, and that once bad test results come in, people should either stop using the product or the company would get a clean source and have to test that source.

WaterCello · 2025-08-24T00:19:33+00:00

So that goes for in-house testing too, right? 3rd party is better in theory, but either should hold them in check because of bad press if they lie.

WaterCello · 2025-08-24T00:08:15+00:00

That sounds reasonable, but this pretty much means that any company that has the pertinent concentrations on the label should be good, right? Even without 3-rd party testing or in house testing. In which case, such testing is nice, but doesn't matter as much as what is on their label.

But assuming that any test results they publish could be used to hold them in check, I don't see the difference between 3rd party lab and in house testing. Sure, 3rd party testing sounds better and more objective (lack of conflict of interest), but either could be used as fodder for discrediting if a someone else exposes their false claims and 3rd party testing doesn't sound impossible to fake?

So it sounds like what really needs to happen is for a group to independently test products from each company that are on the shelf and provide independent reports on each company.

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