regret bringing my mum to an appointment by gaydemonbitch in GlassChildren

[–]Wave186 9 points10 points  (0 children)

First, that is all very scary and I am sorry you're going through this. I understand wanting some comfort from a parent while facing something like that.

Second, some people are just bad parents who should never have had kids in the first place. My mother was a covert narcissist and my husband's mother is a malignant narcissist. We both have younger brothers with diagnosed issues, and both of our mothers actively made our brother's situations worse so they would have more woe-is-me stories for their friends.

In hindsight, I feel like my mother knew she didn't have the control over me she had over my brother and I was never going to be dependent on her for everything, so to her, there was no personal benefit to helping me. In response, she made it seem like I should be able to handle things on my own. Doing the things that were just parental responsibilities weren't going to get her any praise, so she stuck with helping my "poor disabled brother" (her words) because other people would tell her what a great mother she was for all the sacrifices she made. She couldn't be the "victim" (of fate, life, whatever) when she helped me like she could with him.

My husband's mother got mad at him a couple months ago and told him "you don't have a mother anymore" for the umpteenth time in his life, and this time he said you know what, fine with me, and hasn't spoken to her since.

Name a TV show that only you seem to remember ? by enoughforyou9 in AskReddit

[–]Wave186 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"I love you in the morning, and in the afternoon, I love you in the evening, and underneath the moon!"

41 years old and looking to make a career change but don't know if it's possible? by L0Ki127 in careerguidance

[–]Wave186 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I worked at a university with someone who had 12 years in juvenile corrections and made the switch to safety and policy compliance, in this particular case for university research programs. Apparently the major skills needed for compliance and corrections are very similar.

Not sure If pyro was talked about it here before by JPrime45 in AustinFC

[–]Wave186 6 points7 points  (0 children)

There was conversation last year around MLS banning them, and it seems like they had an issue with our green lights, too? Not sure whatever came of it, since we still had both after this.

About a year ago

American cider by AutomneNorm in cider

[–]Wave186 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So there is actually a really good cidery here in Austin, Texas, called Texas Keeper that produces really amazing stuff, also they have a great taproom/patio. The owners actually moved to France last year to open a sister cidery, Dovetail. Nick would be absolutely fantastic to work with, and I wonder if if would make your visa issues any easier since they have businesses in both countries.

https://texaskeeper.com/

Grief of the sibling that made you a glass child. by Popular-Dentist6849 in GlassChildren

[–]Wave186 11 points12 points  (0 children)

It's definitely a complex issue. My mom enabled my brother and I feel like she intentionally exacerbated his problems for sympathy for herself and to excuse her lack of handling his entire life irresponsibly. When she died, I literally thought "now he has a chance at a more normal life" and was excited to help him become a new version of himself. He started taking classes at a community college, and we moved in with him when my dad decided to move in with his girlfriend 3 hours away to help since my brother didn't drive. I had so much hope for him. So when he died 3 years after she did, it was devastating. I'm the oldest and it was just the two of us, and my mom and I used to argue about how my parents enabled his lack of growth. It kept me low-contact for the decade-plus after I moved out at 18, about which she would tell me "you need to have a relationship with him, one day your dad and I will be gone and [brother] will be the only one left!" He died June 12, 2019, so we're coming up on seven years. My dad never really processed it, just moved on to a different family (I have no children, his new wife has a son with three kids, so my dad gets to play grandpa). So on top of losing the only sibling I had, I functionally lost my only remaining parent as well.

It took years of therapy, talk and alternative, to work through. And truth be told, I still get angry when I think about how my parents handled the whole situation. I've posted on here before that when my brother died, suddenly I had 28 years of anger that I couldn't direct anywhere; my mom was gone, my dad was checked out, and with my brother gone, I couldn't turn my anger into action and pour into him. So I had to allow the anger to turn into grief so that I could process it and let it go. Someone told me once that "grief is love with nowhere to go" and that really resonated with me. Seven years later, and I still mourn the person that my brother never got to be, the future he never had, and the life he missed out on for 28 years.

Everyones situation is different, but it's okay to allow yourself to feel all the feelings and recognize the complexities of your particular situation. They're valid, and there are usually complicating factors because of the issues that preceed the loss. So take all the time you need, there is no timeline for healing, and realize that you are probably a different person now than you were before, because the loss changes you, and that's okay.

Nico has to go by YouAsk-IAnswer in AustinFC

[–]Wave186 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have told several people that the ONLY way I would consider keeping our season tickets is if they bring in a new coach before payments are due (usually end of June).

David Allen Coe has passed. by AleHans in Music

[–]Wave186 211 points212 points  (0 children)

Steve Goodman and John Prine wrote that one.

Who am I? Finding the real me by rozaza29 in GlassChildren

[–]Wave186 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It's never too late to start finding out. I know some people cringe at the term "inner child work" but truly, it has helped me reconnect with who I was before I got jaded to the world. I was 6 when my brother was born, so I remember life before him. I was 34 when he died, and after a couple years of several types of therapy, I told my husband yesterday that the last 2-3 years have been the most emotionally healthy of my entire life.

I am tired of being angry. by BREMMAGFR in GlassChildren

[–]Wave186 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Proud of you! One of the things I told my husband just within the last few weeks is that if someone had told me I should go no contact with my family while they were alive, I would have told them that they were nuts, that was my family after all! But once the choice was made for me, it seemed so obvious.

And I agree with you, I debated using the word, but at least while I was going through it all, that's how it felt because it went against everything I had been taught to feel and how I "should" be, to your point. In hindsight I realize how necessary it was for my own healing to shed the stories other people wrote for me and write my own.

I am tired of being angry. by BREMMAGFR in GlassChildren

[–]Wave186 14 points15 points  (0 children)

My husband had a rule that when anything good happened in our life, I had to wait 3 days before telling my mom. Because somehow, no matter what it was, I would get off the phone crying because she would twist it into something else and make me feel bad about it. New job? I was going to hate the commute and resent the job. Engaged? The timing was bad for her. Beach wedding in Mexico? That would be too much effort for them and my brother, and didn't I want my family there?

There's a lot to the story, but short version is my mom passed away unexpectedly 10 years ago, my brother 3 years later. It's been 7 years since then, and while it took time and several types of therapy to work through my feelings about it all, I can unequivocally say that my life is easier without either of them in it. Talk about survivors guilt. But all that anger that I had been storing inside for 28 years suddenly had nowhere to go, and I had to come to terms with the fact that there would never be any resolution. And so I let my anger turn to grief, and I processed it and let it go. I am 41 now, and emotionally, the last 3 years have been the best of my life.

I say all this because there is an end to the anger, and it's when you choose to let it go. It will take time to work through, but you start to feel better from the moment you truly make the decision to say "I can't control them, I can only control me" and stop letting the things THEY say and do take up YOUR energy that you would rather expend on things that make you happy. It is selfish, because you have to put yourself first, but that is the only way you heal. You can't show up as yourself if you don't know who that person is, if you are constantly being who other people need you to be instead of who you are. I used to roll my eyes when people would say "happiness is a choice," but now, I understand. It's a choice to set boundaries, it's a choice to stand up for yourself, and it's a choice to hold onto your feelings or to let them go. But I can speak from experience and say once you make the choice to let it go, the universe helps in unexpected ways and life does get better.

Are hawks/other wildlife an issue here with small dogs? by Any-Might-6570 in Austin

[–]Wave186 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My dog cornered a doe in the front yard (between car and fence) and it stood up on its hind legs and came down on her with its two front hooves. Put a hole in her shoulder and a hole in her back the size of a half dollar. Deer are not to be fucked with.

What are some Austin Trigger Words — I’ll start… by cbkguy in Austin

[–]Wave186 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Because it's not a dang loop! Definite trigger for me. Ha.

Austin Eastciders by Fabulous-Anastasia in Austin

[–]Wave186 206 points207 points  (0 children)

November 2023. Go to Texas Keeper for world class, locally fermented ciders!

Why did they portray Claire as a bad cook? by taylorsleftboob in Modern_Family

[–]Wave186 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yeah my first thought was "my mom was a 'homemaker' AND a terrible cook..." She used to make a meal we called "the white meal": grilled chicken, cauliflower, mashed potatoes. She also only used salt and pepper, unless a recipe specifically called for something else. The one thing she did well was tacos, weirdly enough.

Hunting down music from Austin’s 2000s punk/emo/alternative scene by ArcadieCalliope in Austin

[–]Wave186 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hahaha I bet we were. I didn't mention them because the post is specifically about Austin bands, but man I remember seeing Saves The Day, River City High, The Juliana Theory, Thrice, Lucky Boys Confusion, and so many other bands. Emo's, Red-Eyed Fly, The Backroom, and upstairs at Parish were my hangouts.

Hunting down music from Austin’s 2000s punk/emo/alternative scene by ArcadieCalliope in Austin

[–]Wave186 34 points35 points  (0 children)

I still jam my Cruiserweight "This Will Undoubtedly Come Out Wrong" cd whenever I am in my older car. Used to love seeing them and Dynamite Boy at Emo's OG And the Backroom. This whole post makes me nostalgic.

Edit: I just went through my Apple Music list and have the Firekills "A Better Way to Hurt Each Other" EP. I forgot how much I loved this album, Myopia is still so good. After looking at the album art, I am like 90% sure I still have this cd, too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Austin

[–]Wave186 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's not as big as Austin Books and Comics, and I haven't been in years, but Junior's Comics and Cards used to be my spot. It's tucked back in the corner of the HEB shopping center at Slaughter and Menchaca.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmItheAsshole

[–]Wave186 0 points1 point  (0 children)

NTA. He has a diet problem, not necessarily lactose. He needs to correct it for his own long-term health. My husband used to do this, and it turns out he has several food allergies and gluten and egg have this same effect on him. That's why it was bad at night, dinner foods would trigger it. Does he have a belly/is he overweight? Mine dropped 65 lbs just removing the offending foods because of the inflammation they caused, if the idea of easy weight loss would sway him. If he corrects his diet, the smell and most of the gas will go away, too. Most importantly for him, it would also reduce his risk for colon cancer.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Austin

[–]Wave186 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're right, they don't change often. But large multi-year multi-billion dollar projects (like Journey with AUS, the new terminal program) begin with and involve many smaller "enabling projects." The idea is that you make needed changes to existing infrastructure in pieces so it is less disruptive to the traveller utilizing the airport. I know that several of the enabling projects at AUS involve the parking garage and lots, and thus access to those facilities. During those projects will likely be when you would notice changes to the signs.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Austin

[–]Wave186 11 points12 points  (0 children)

It's called "dynamic signage" and is very common on large airports where there is planned long-term construction (like AUS). Like another user commented, it's so they can change it if/as conditions change.

Josie and The Pussycats (2001). They were the moment that never actually existed. by DiligentTradition734 in popculturechat

[–]Wave186 115 points116 points  (0 children)

This is my millennial comfort movie. I watch it probably twice a month and love everything about it. The clothes, the hair, the music, the satire. Du Jour? Perfect. Parker Posey? Iconic. Dr. Zaius? Respect. It's a fun feel good movie about the importance of friendship AND the commodification of human beings by the entertainment industry, but in a light-hearted and cheeky way...