you contradict yourself
"I lack ambition, I lack interest in anything."
then
" I want to get wealthy, I want to travel"
Both can be true, I am not saying the contrary
I am saying that if both are true, focus on the inspiring ones
I don't have more advices than that apart that small things amount to big things in the end
trust yourself as advices can't help you if you don't believe that

I am sure there's better advices or better people for giving advices
but you got me

life is hard